Is Life a Masquerade?

I've Moved!!!

2007-02-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Hey everyone!!!

I'm moving to www.patricialin.com!!!

Check out my posts which are guaranteed to be better!

Do bookmark that site okie?!

In the meantime, take care and God blesS!!!

*cHEERS!*

Happy Chinese New Year~!

2007-02-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

This year's chinese new year... is a rather low-key celebration for my family. Well, that's because we're actually in the mourning period of my grandma's passing.

Firstly, I didn't have a regular steamboat reunion dinner. This year's was sooo much quieter. It was just me, dad and mum. Long gone are those days where the entire family of 15 people gathered together at a table - chit-chatting, eating and just feeding each other with the huge variety of food on the table.

Secondly, my cousins were all missing. They weren't around to spend this joyous occasion with me.

Thirdly, I didn't go visiting. I really miss the good old days where everyone was just plain happy. Even if it meant that they were going to incur losses just by giving out red packets. Namely, my own family. Coz I'm the only child and I only receive a red packet per household. Whereas, others who have more children will receive more than 1 red packet from my family!

Lastly, it wasn't Chinese New Year anymore, without my grandparents to visit.

Sigh... but thank God there is Calvin's Family. They showed me all that I thought I had lost. They made me feel a part of them, even though I was just a visitor. Their hospitality, just made me feel sooo welcome during this joyous occasion.

I got to spend time with Calvin's Granny and Grandpa.. his cousins and also his uncles and aunties.

Though I feel bad on missing out on my uncle's gathering - which was a last min plan btw and also not meeting my dearest cousins, Joelynn, Christy and Eunice today.. I still enjoyed myself a lot with a family that made me feel sooo comfortable.

I thank God for everything. For His Love, for showing me the love of another family & for bringing someone sooo special into my life - Calvin.

Enjoy Chinese New Year everyone!

*love,joy,peace*

God bless.

I hate memories..

2007-02-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

I hate memories.. Don't ask me why.

I guess that's coz they remind me of the past.
The unhappiness that took place before.

Memories seem to carry a lot more hurt and pain than joy and happiness. So, often I wish I didn't have to have them at all. I don't know why I let memories haunt me though. They have become my nemesis ( i think this is the right word) and I just crumble the moment I think of something bad/sad.

Sigh... I need to constantly remind myself of the good memories. Those that made me laugh till i cried.. those that were so wonderful..................................

Gimme a hand if u can ya? Share/Remind me of the good times we had/ are having.. So that my memories won't be plagued with unhappy incidents..

thanks~

take care. God bless.

*SmiLez*

Bloggies~~!

2007-01-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

Gosh.. Blogs are becoming soooo common now. People around me that I know, either had a blog or still have a blog. It has become our 'home' online and it helps us to connect with the online community. It's so magical because though you're actually talking to a bunch of strangers online, they suddenly become your friends or even online family.

It's amazing how the internet and blogging has been embedded into our lives that without both, we are almost dysfunctional. I can't imagine not being able to access the internet in 3 days! Can you? Blogging to me, is just a hobby where i share with you all what's happening in my life. But seriously, it's a great way for us to communicate with others or even earn money from!

Well, read calvin's blog www.calvinwoon.com if you want to know what i mean. His blog is getting more and more impressive and interesting than mine.. Waaahh.. HAHA lol~!

So check it out k?

Peace. Love. Joy

*take care. God bless*

SOoo Much to Do.. SoooO Little Time..

2007-01-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

How many times have we complained that we have so many things to do yet have so little time to accomplish all these? Well, I've always complained about this.. Ever since i started secondary school.

Well, i'm currently trying to juggle a couple of things at hand. And they are:
1. Keeping up with reading texts required by my modules
2. Keeping up with my lessons
3. Keeping up with my CCA commitments
4. Keeping myself healthy or at the peak of health

There are so many things that I wanna do.. but i just don't know when I'm going to start on it. And they are:
1. Clearing my room
2. Tidying my wardrobe
3. Throwing unnecessary stuff i don't need
4. Selling music Cds i do not want to listen to anymore
5. Creating a new blog
6. Picking up Internet Marketing full speed
7. Finishing up the xmas present for Calvin which nv got started
8. Starting on my sewing project
9. Losing weight
10. Exercising
11. Dieting
12. Keeping in touch with my dear frenz, PL HY YZ N SL
13. Saving money
14. Learning how to invest
15. Creating an organised work table

HAHA.. i'M 21.. BUT seriously nothing has changed. Argh.. i shouldn't fool myself any longer. Older = more responsibilities = need for better management
*Time to wake up Pat and Smell the COFFEE..* Hahaha.. lol~! Tat's the common phrase spoken by my dear Calvin.. haha..

well, enough said, back to work/sleep.. Still deciding.. am sick ma. Sianz...

Take care. God bless.

*peace, joy, love*

Happy Birthday to myself!!!

2007-01-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

Haha... I haven't got time to blog for a long long time coz been busy with the launch of the ebook and also with planning my bbq celebration. Other than that, semester has started and everything's going haywire!!! I don't know what's wrong with me but i seem to be starting everything on the wrong foot! GOsh...

But anyhow, the birthday party was great! People whom i wanted to be there, were there and it was great to see all my friends from everywhere - fuchun, ahmad ibrahim, yishun and also nus. It's fun to share the happiness and joy with everyone though I must say i went berserk with the preparations. Thank God Calvin and Eunice were there!

The celebration had a lot of food, lack of drinks though and loads of ppl... HahA... Wanna post some photos but argh.. dunno wat's up with the Hello Picasa.. coz i can't upload them...

Well, will keep u updated of stuff and happenings!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace, joy, love*

Which Superhero/Supervillain are YOU?

2007-01-03T00:17:00.000+08:00

Haha.. i encountered this amusing post at Andrew Wee's site... at www.whoisandrewwee.com.. this blogger who has some interesting posts on internet marketing and affiliate marketing which are what i'm currently interested in.

Anyway, this exercise was sooo amusing that I had to take it myself!

So after just 2 surveys that I did, here are the results:

Your results:
You are Superman

Superman		60%
Hulk		60%
Iron Man		60%
Spider-Man		55%
Robin		50%
Green Lantern		50%
Supergirl		40%
Wonder Woman		40%
The Flash		40%
Batman		35%
Catwoman		35%

You are mild-mannered, good,
strong and you love to help others.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Test

Haha.. It's pretty cool that I'm Superman!!! Coz he is my favourite super hero.. I grew up watching Christopher Reeves man.. hehe..

Your results:
You are Dr. Doom

Dr. Doom		49%
Dark Phoenix		45%
The Joker		41%
Riddler		39%
Poison Ivy		37%
Apocalypse		36%
Mystique		36%
Catwoman		34%
Lex Luthor		34%
Juggernaut		32%
Two-Face		32%
Magneto		26%
Mr. Freeze		22%
Kingpin		21%
Venom		15%
Green Goblin		12%

Blessed with smarts and power but burdened by vanity.

Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test

Erm.. Who is he? Haha...
Anyway, take the test if you wanna find out which super hero/ villain you are!!! It's pretty cool and interestin eh?

Have a blessed day!

take care. God bless.

*peace, joy, love*

Happy New Year!!!

2007-01-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

Hey folks!!!

One year just gone past and it's already 2007!!! I've been looking forward to this year for my whole life! I'm gonna turn 21 in 6 days!!! Gosh... it's scary... hehe.. But i'm looking forward to it!

Friends, please RSVP whether you are coming to the BBQ at:
http://www.evite.com/app/publicUrl/patricialin_17@hotmail.com/my21stbday

Well, here are my hopes and dreams for 2007:
1. To be happy
2. For my family and loved ones to be happy
3. To successfully set up kidslovetoys.com
4. To save up $70 each month
5. To build up e-business
6. For peace, love and joy
7. For a smooth-sailing year ahead
8. For God to bless everyone with good health

There you have it! I hope that everyone has a blessed and wonderful year ahead and that no matter what happens, always be happy and tell yourself that you are good, even if others don't believe in you, believe in yourself.

Cheers!!!

take care. May God bless us all!

*peace, joy, love*

Argh~! I'm getting fat!

2006-12-28T00:17:00.000+08:00

Sheesh... I'm putting on loads of weight... *argh*~!

I want to revert back to my healthy living where i played sports every darn day and food did not exist in my life!

Sometimes i wonder if losing weight will become a lifelong obsession of mine. I certainly hope not. But i just can't help it.

Growing up as an overweight child certainly left me hugely sensitive to my weight and even to how i look. Even when people pay me compliments these days, i tend not to take their words for real. Because I feel that i'll never be good enough/ pretty enough.

Thoughts like these sometimes drive me nuts. I wish that I didn't live in a world that paid so much attention to how one looks/ eats/ feels. But i guess I just have to learn to deal with it.

sigh~

take care. God bless.

*peace*

p.s.: Guess my new year resolution is to lose weight again. Haha...

Merry Xmas~!

2006-12-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

It's christmas!!!

YippEE! Here's wishing everyone a great xmas.. have a blessed and wonderful time with your family and friends okie! hehe...

take care. God bless you!

*peace, joy and love*

Friends...

2006-12-22T23:31:00.000+08:00

I met up with Yewen, Weijiun and Marleen yesterday for dinner and it was really nice to meet up with old friends.. Friends whom i have known for close to half a decade. Time flies doesn't it? It's great to meet up with old friends because you can reminisce the times you once shared... Sometimes, we forget about the past in our quest for the future that we tend to lose sight of what we once were. Though i'm not saying that one should always look back at the past, but it doesn't hurt to remember the people who once touched our lives.

We had a good time despite not meeting up for a LONG, LONG LONG LONG LONG time.... And i'm glad that they haven't forgotten me, as their friend. It's time to meet up with old pals... something which i haven't done in ages... Something that you should do so too if u haven't.

3 more days to christmas! YippeEE!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace, joy, love*

Our Ebook~!!!

2006-12-22T01:16:00.000+08:00

Finally it's out!!! Well, it's sooo cool that calvin and I actually have our own ebook out! It's the fruit of mostly calvin's labour and hey, i did help out too.. I learnt a lot from this book actually. I learnt a lot about internet marketing and picked up quite a number of skills needed to earn money online. Hence, I'll most probably be revamping my blog soon in order to generate a passive income from it!

Well, i haven't thought about what I am going to do.. but i think i pretty much have a direction in which i wanna go into. and that is to blog about my experience being an overweight teenager to a young adult-to-be!

well, before i let u know too much, i really hope that those of you who want to know the 7 ways of earning money online... to check out the eBook. It is completely free and we have taken our holidays to write it. And we hope to share the fruit of our labour with our friends and blog visitors.

Hope to hear what comments you may have too! Do visit calvin's blog at www.calvinwoon.com/7ways for the eBook.

Thanks a lot folks and Christmas is coming... so have a blessed one... Merry christmas!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Christmas is coming~!

2006-12-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Gift Ideas for Everyone!

Just in case you are busy wondering what gifts to get for people in your lives... well here are some suggestions. I'm doing this because I enjoy shopping and also hunting for gifts and... I've recently been asked a couple of times about what are suitable gifts to give to friends and family... sooo here goes~!

FOR GUYS:
1. If they are soccer/sports fanatics: get them related merchandise such as the cap, the towel, the jersey, the soccer boots/ basketball shoes or even cable subscription to their favourite sports channels!
2. If they are metro-sexual: get them great healthcare products such as beauty products, health care supplements, manicure sets etc..
3. If they frequent the gym: get them a sports towel, a gym bag, a new outfit or perhaps even a shower kit..
4. For the ever so macho- sporty guy: get him a CD compilation of his favourite rock/hip-hop songs or best, get him those shades that he wants!
5. For those who just enjoy a good book and coffee: that's right! Just get him a book or the best coffee beans in town lor!!! haha...
6. Guys could do with practical items such as ties, shirts, cufflinks, wallet etc...
7. If you want to be special: cook him a gd meal on Christmas

FOR GALS:
1. If she is demure and sweet: nothing beats giving your gal a nice necklace which is sweet and not gaudy... look out for something that is unique and something which can be worn on all occasions
2. If she loves flowers: get her flowers! Flowers don't go wrong for any occasion.. provided she is not allergic to pollen!
3. Get her perfume and drop her a sweet note such as, "With this fragrance on you, even the most beautiful and sweet-smelling rose will wilt because of your beauty and grace". Though corny, it can give you a good laugh which can be a plus point if you are chasing that gal.
4. Never go wrong with a handbag... get her a nice handbag or the one she has been eyeing... How do you know she's eyeing a particular bag.. when she keeps visiting the same store in 1 shopping trip!
5. Get her the best chocolates... Chocolates are a gal's best friend... though i know of a friend who loafs chocs... i wonder why... in case you're not sure if she likes/hates chocs.. stick to those which have fruits in them.. like strawberry flavoured, rum choc.. etc...
6. Cook up something for her.. like brownies in the shape of santa? Haha.. ingenious idea... but takes time though..
7. Sew something on a teddy bear for her? Her initials would do great... if not, get her items such as figurines which she can relate to... such as her fav. character, colour, name.. etc...

FOR PARENTS:
1. If you can afford it, give them tickets to a cruise over new year... I think it's a great idea..
2. Get matching Pyjamas... and let them have a good laugh over it.
3. Treat them to a gd christmas breakfast/ dinner... either by cooking or eating out~!

I hope these suggestions are ok... if you're thinking what to give to colleagues/ acquaintances... I suggest just purchasing those gift sets available in the stores... Check out Body Shop...

For friends, well, i believe that it's the thought that counts. Check out what your friends eye or gush about and that could give you a rather good idea of what to get them. If not, always stick to stuff representative of them.. such as their fav., brands, what they like to do, their fav. colours, fav. food... etc.. Or best, just design a collage of all the photos that you have taken with them.. A picture says a thousand words.. hehe..

Hope you all have a blessed Christmas and that 2006 will close on a good note for you!

Take care. God bless..

*peace, joy and love*

Siblings/ No siblings?

2006-12-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

I did something really cute today. I 'babysitted' my two youngest cousins today for a short while in the afternoon. Yep, they may be the youngest in the family but they are certainly not that 'baby-ish'. One's primary 6 and the other is in secondary 2.

What's so amazing is that, they make me wonder how it feels to have siblings? Though half the time, the both of them including Eunice will be bickering with each other, but at the end of the day, they always make up and just forget about everything. I on the other hand, have only bickered with my parents and sometimes with eunice, but that's about it. We don't pull each other's hair, scream at each other or just beat up each other (just in the name of fun btw).

Sometimes, the absence of someone who's around your age can be a little lonely. There's no one who shares your Gen's jokes, understand your Gen's lingo and just know exactly what you are going through in school/ with friends. Which is why I often hang out with a lot of friends because of the lack of erm... sibling support?

There are times where i wish i had a sibling but often, i thank God that i don't. I normally am proud of it - being independent and being a 'spoilt-brat'. And i used to hate it when people just rub it in that they expect single children to just be plain lonely, antisocial and having a problem with their attitudes. I don't deny that i was once like that, but I am thankful that I grew up amongst fabulous people who love me a lot and who taught me well.

As much as I envy those who have siblings, i am thankful that I have great companions along the way. Be they my friends, cousins, uncles, aunts, dad and mum, they rocked my life and made me who i am today.

So don't fret, if you are having sibling trouble/ loneliness... always remember you've got ppl around you. And if you don't, well, i'm here. =)

*peace*

take care. God bless.

Exams are over!!!

2006-12-01T23:34:00.000+08:00

The agonising semester is finally over...

December is here!!!

December is here!!!

December is here!!!

Holidays are here!!!

Holidays are here!!!

Holidays are here!!!

YipPee!!! soooo HAPPY!!! haha..

Enjoy the holidays!!!

*peace*

take care. God bless.

Absolutely Absurd!

2006-11-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

I am p*ssed off. Why? Because i don't understand why can't people just understand that I am already upset that my wallet was pickpocketed?!

Well, if you have read the previous blog, you'll know that moi had her wallet pickpocketed/ lost her wallet during a shopping trip down to Bugis Street of Singapore. And yep, I not only lost my wallet, but also the many stuff inside.

Well, definitely i can't live without having my debit cards, atm cards, identity card and ezlink card, so therefore I set out to have them all replaced.

The banks were kind enough to do a free replacement for me and my cards and they were very efficient in providing the service. UOB and DBS cancelled my cards immediately and even sent replacements within 48 hours. They activated my cards almost immediately, after I sent in my acknowledgement slip. But these are only the debit cards.

I called the banks to ask for replacement of my ATM cards and they requested that I go down to any of their branches to ask for a new one and pay $5 each. Gosh~ I don't understand, if they can offer my debit cards back for free, on learning my plight, why can't they do the same for my ATM cards?

Sigh... and then, i realised that i can't get my ATM cards because I need my IC to verify my identification which i don't have (because everything was lost remember?) and they required me to go back with my passport the next time.

So, i set off to find out how to replace my identification card. My goodness! I found out that i have to pay $100 for the first replacement! $100!!! I lost a total of $160 in cash in that wallet and I am freakin' broke and now i have to pay $100 for a card that proves that I am who I say i am? Gosh. The subsequent number of losses, you have to pay $300 for the replacement. What does this world believe in? Punishing those who are already upset enough?

I have been using the adult ezlink card because i have lost my student one and hence, have been topping up in cash for the use of the card. I topped up $30 in 4 days. I didn't know that local transportation was so expensive or just so easy to squander my money away. No wonder people are complaining about the price hikes. Sheesh..

So now, i set off to replace my Ezlink card. And guess what, I need to pay $21 for them to create a new ezlink card for me! And i still have to pay a $10 deposit to activate the card. And on top of that, since i want concession, i need to fork out another $96. My goodness.

My driver's license has got me really upset to. To make a new one, it costs $50. Can you imagine if i am a person who drives everyday and if i lose my driver's license that I have to pay for the new one and still wait for it to arrive in 2 weeks' time? What inconvenience it will cause!

Other than that, i need to replace my matriculation card, the identity card used in school and I have to pay another $15-20 for it.

I find it absolutely absurd that I have to pay for all these replacements when I didn't even ask to be pickpocketed. I am miserable with the loss and here i am, having to pay for all these freakin' cards and documents. I really hate the person who stole/took my wallet. Why can't he/she just send me back all the cards?! Keep that $160 for all i care. Just send me back the cards. You can't do anything with those cards and they mean nothing to you. But the loss of these cards is causing me agony.

SH*T you, you pickpocket/wallet taker/thief/useless fella!

Sorry for the angst people, but i hope you know how i feel.

Thanks for lending me a pair of 'looking eyes' (instead of listening ears that is)

*peace*

take care and God bless!!!

LOOKING FOR LOST WALLET!!!

2006-10-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

I lost my wallet in Bugis today. Around 6.45pm.

Where? I'm not too sure. Either pickpocketed at Bugis Village, if not dropped it in Parco Bugis Junction's Seiyu.

I'm distraught. Because it's really precious to me.

It's a black Pierre Cardin wallet, which costs around $80. And i used my savings after my A levels to buy the wallet. It's really precious to me.

These are its contents.
1) Approx. S$150 in cash
2) My IC
3) My driver's license
4) My International Student Card
5) My cashcard - $8 plus
6) My DBS NUS Debit Card
7) POSB Debit Card
8) UOB Campus Card
9) UOB Mini Card
10) ATM card
11) My NUS Co-Op card
12) My Popular Card

And the most precious item in my wallet. His photo. One when he was young and one taken recently.

I'm sooo sad.

If anyone comes aross the wallet, please let me know. Email me at patricialin_17@hotmail.com

Thanks a lot..

*peace*

take care and God bless.

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

2006-10-28T17:48:00.000+08:00

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I love this song and Jon Leong performed this song at Singapore Idol Season 2. Enjoy the song.

*peace*

take care and God bless.

The Victim's Mindset

2006-10-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today, i had a very different kind of revelation. For approximately 3 hours today, i sat there thinking even though I was busy trying to read and memorise my marketing textbook but i was pondering about the words of Adam Khoo.

Well, mr.calvin is a really big fan of Adam Khoo and he told me to listen to one of the tapes that he has released. One thing he mentioned was the Victim's mindset which really got me to think about how my life has been going to waste because of negative thoughts that i repeat to myself, resulting in me, living my life fulfilling those prophecies. For a moment, i thought about how many times i have overcome the odds and became victorious. Who can ever forget me, the failing physics student performing well for physics at the prelims? What about those times where i endured tough basketball trainings?

I was sooo caught up these days with criticising myself that i forgot what a fantastic person i was, am and ought to be. I forgot that there was the great Patricia. All I have been bothered by was that stupid, fat and ugly girl who i always saw in the mirror. It never occurred to me that I was making myself feel low, down and demotivated.

I was falling fast into the victim's mindset where i think i can do it and not I can do it. This even threatened to sabotage the relationships that i have with people. I lost confidence all because I felt alone during tutorials, lectures and at home. I forgot that despite being alone, that there were still people concerned about me. I took them for granted.

Now, i feel energised when I think about the positive mindset that i should embark each day with and that I should wake up eager to start the day and not complaining of being unable to sleep in.

I should live my life to the fullest and not let it go to waste.

I hope that you can think about how you have been digging your own grave if you have been burying yourself with negative comments and just wasting your life away with self-criticism. Let's work hard together to prove to everyone that we are strong and we can make things happen!!!

*peace*

Take care and God bless.

NTU's funniest lecturer!!!

2006-10-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

NTU lecturer Feedback Damn Funny..

My goodness! I simply love this video because it's freaking funny!!! Thanks to G to sent me the link.. I've watched it a zillion times and never failed to laugh till my tummy hurts! It's hilarious!!! Do watch it and let me know!!! hahaha.. I salute that man in the video man... no wonder he won Best Teacher Award 14times.. or so i heard.. hehe!

Enjoy it!

*peace*

take care and God bless.

Been a fruitful day!

2006-10-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

Today has been a rather good day.

1. Finished my SWOT analysis for project.
2. Finished German Homework
3. Got Evanescence CD for radio broadcast

Though i haven't started on my marketing readings again.. argh... actually quite unproductive hor. Aiya.. who cares. I rested.

heE!

*peace*

take care. God bless.

Monday Blues...

2006-10-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

Mondays are sooo blue...

Without you........

Check out my timetable for today:
5.30am - Wake Up
6.45am - Get out of the house
8 am - German Lecture
10-10.30am - Research Participant Programme
10.30am Cognitive Psychology Lecture
12pm - Asia Markets and Marketing Management
3pm- Cognitive Psychology Tutorial
4pm- Research and Statistical Methods 1
5pm- End of lessons
5.15pm - Settle NUSSU - DBS stuff..
6pm- Home Sweet Home...

Today is also no-calvin-woon day... sad sad sad...

Never mind.. Tomorrow will be a better day.

cheerS!

*peace*

take care. God bless.

Vivo City the Biggest Mall in Singapore!!!

2006-10-14T21:56:00.000+08:00

Vivo City is now the place to be seen and caught in! Haha.. I managed to sneak in a trip last thursday together with Calvin to catch a movie! We caught Me, You and Dupree which was by the way, a very disappointing flick. We should have caught World Trade Centre instead.. could have gotten the movie tickets for free in fact.

Ahh... but never mind. The experience in Singapore's biggest mall was cool! There were so many different stores and even NafNaf! My goodness.. even foreign brands are coming in... but where's H&M?! But my gosh.. the concept of the mall is fantastic! It's like really huge and with a resort setting feeling to it. Absolutely cool...

But if you're not the kind of person who likes to walk end to end to get what you want, well, you won't be happy with Vivo. One can get lost just by walking around and it might be difficult to find the store you want too...

Anyway, who cares! It's a great place to hang out because it's freakin' huge and beautiful... they have a "sea shore" on their topmost level by the way... haha.. it's for you to explore and drop by Vivo City!!!

*peace*

take care. God bless.

Dubai..

2006-10-10T20:03:00.000+08:00

Hey! Who has been to Dubai?! Haha.. I'm doing a project on Dubai..
Well, in case you don't know much about Dubai.. Check the video above out.. hehe :)
In the meantime, Help~!
heE!

*peace*

take care. God bless.

There's No One Like You

2006-10-09T23:24:00.000+08:00

Taken: 09.10.06 at the bus stop. Don't you just adore that goofy-lookin' bf of mine?
*EH!!! HE'S MINE!* lol~!

Calvin,

There's no one like you...
Who can make me laugh, scream or even tear.

There's no one like you...
Who can care for me when i'm sick or hug me like a bear.

There's no one like you...
Who can give me advice or show at least some care.

There's no one like you...
Who can always give me a goofy smile.

There's no one like you...
Who will go that extra mile.

There's no one like you...
Who will be that boy waiting at the door.

There's no one like you...
Who can stand me - a girlfriend who is a bore.

There's no one like you...
Who will make my day.

There's no one like you...
Who can pave my way.

There's no one like you...
Who loves me just the way you do.

There's no one like you...
Who can complete me the way you do.

There's no one like you...
you silly calvin woon.

There's no one like you...
And that's why i love you.

Thanks for being there for me.

Thanks for being so sweet.

Well, thanks for loving me, dear.

*Sorry to subject readers to mushy content*

*peace*

Take care. God bless.

Mid Term Paper Craze!

2006-10-08T18:45:00.001+08:00

Haha.. It's the mid term paper craze... why do i say that? Coz everyone around me except dear mr. calvin is busy with doing their mid term paper.

Saw weixiong on saturday:
me: "watcha doin'?"
wx: "mid term paper for geog. i just started on thursday. due on monday lor.."

Saw maxine last week:
maxine: "so stressed... got 4 mid term exams and 1 mid term paper.. stress"
me: "woah... all in the same week ar.."
maxine: "4 mid term exams next week and mid term paper due on 20 oct.. stress"

Saw Xiaowen online today:
xIaÖwEn - {DND- rushing assignment}... i have a really sweet bf.. says:
k la. doing some miserable assignment
xIaÖwEn - {DND- rushing assignment}... i have a really sweet bf.. says:
sian
-:*:-queen pat-:*:- {blog's updated~} says:
everyone also doin assignment
-:*:-queen pat-:*:- {blog's updated~} says:
i also stressed
-:*:-queen pat-:*:- {blog's updated~} says:
when is yours due
xIaÖwEn - {DND- rushing assignment}... i have a really sweet bf.. says:
tom
xIaÖwEn - {DND- rushing assignment}... i have a really sweet bf.. says:
i juz started today muaha
-:*:-queen pat-:*:- {blog's updated~} says:
-_-"

I'm also stressed... coz i got mid term paper due... argh.. 16 oct... argh... same day as vocab test... i need to do something. need to start!!! haha... dun think i can tahan starting only the day before. hehe.. not as brave as xiaowen lor! heE!

Well, everyone! Just jia you!!! hang in there!!!!

*peace*

take care. God bless.

stay stress-free.. hahaha..

Shopping - A Thing of the Past

2006-10-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

Back in JC days, i was notoriously known as the shopping queen.

After school, i shopped at hangouts such as northpoint, causeway point and on friday and saturdays, i was hangin' out in orchard's far east..

Galfrens i had for company were aplenty.. I'm sure if you ask ms. kitying, ms. sang and ms. shiva, they can testify this. I can't remember when or how or why i got the status of "Shopping Queen" in CTG210.

But sad to say, the passion is no longer there. Now, shopping queen is going to step down and just retire... SHOCKED?! don't be... i realised that things aren't as worth buying as they used to be.. i wasn't attracted to things as quickly as i used to be.. but perhaps i can attribute it to the dwindling savings that i have that makes me depressed and i try to scrimp a bit here and there.

The shopping places have all become soooo many and soooo... crowded that my favourite pastime was more of a battle of the fittest than one of leisure.

Bugis Village, well known for its bargains and buys is sooo packed during the weekend that i think i should have gone there on a weekday instead. Moreover, the confusing new layout of the place just makes me.. dizzy... haha... Till i don't know where i've been and don't know where i saw something that i fancied. so i just give it up in the end.

ms. shamala used to tell me to buy whatever i fancy because once i don't and it's gone, i'll regret. haha.. but now.. i think i just don't care. the attitude that i have for shopping is not the same as before. it's a thing of the past. it was part of my life back in the schooling days where i had nothing much to do after school and just spent time and money on shopping... haha...

well, times and things have changed... so... yep.. i'm hereby stepping down from my position of shopping queen... thank you.

*peace*

take care n God bless..

FINALLY BACK ~~~~!!!!!

2006-10-06T22:36:00.000+08:00

After a long absence, silence, mia - missing in action and or in German, ein Pause... I'm back~!

Really sorry for not updating my blog... but since i'm here!!! Gosh.. i'll give you a mega update and summarise everything that has occurred through out this 2-3 months that you have been missing me!!! awww... you poor chaps. lol! Actually, i doubt there's really anyone sooo interested to know abt my life. But i just enjoy the moments of being sooo self-centred.

Anyway, after Union Camp and stuff, it was only right that i got to enjoy my holidays to the max!!! But first, i had to do stuff as NUSSU's DBS Account Manager... how nice it sounds rite? Well, basically i had to organise the DBS NUS Debit card roadshow in campus and the roadshow during matriculation fair was super tiring!!! Thank God i had a superb team of helpers, who were really enthusiastic and sooo forgiving. Gosh, i don't know what i would have done without them lor...
Namely, Darling dearest Calvin, Super duper bestie Shiva, Indian-wannabe Darren, Sweet Joanne, X-tina with SOC Yandao Zhijia, PeiQi and Zeting - the silent killers.. haha.. they seem outwardly soo quiet but actually they rock!, Goofy Jason and Siwei, 'Eric' Weixiong, MIA Mark, helpful Jasmine and Maxine, who came down just for a couple of hours to help me and calvin out and sooo on... did I forget anyone? I can't remember...

Well, that was our treat for working hard for 4 days and me and Calvin went down to N.Y.D.C. at Holland V.. We enjoyed ourselves man.. by eating good food. We looked tired didn't we? Haha.. But anyhow, we spent quality time during the roadshow.. amazingly.. and after the roadshow. Well, thinking back on how we stuck by each other during the gruelling roadshow hours, i really appreciate having him around me all the time. Because i can depend on him and i truly treasure him a lot... *sorry if it's too mushy for u to read it.. but i seriously don't know whether i could pull thru if he wasn't around... somemore, he gave up his well-paying part time job just to earn $6 an hour with me..*

We definitely had better things to do than to work!!! Haha.. Sorry if it seems as though i spent my holidays entirely with mr.calvin, but it's the truth and i can't deny it ya.. hehe.. Well, the next highlight has got to be national day parade preview!!! Ooops... it occurred before the matriculation fair. hehe.. paiseh.

Anyway, calvin's papa is sooo nice to give us the tickets to the preview which he got from his RC. He could have gone together with calvin's mama.. but he didn't. Well, calvin's jiejie let us have the tickets because they went to last year's one. AHHH... long story la. In short, we went to watch the NDP Preview!!! And i got to watch fireworks!!! Man.. do i love fireworks... it's sooo beautiful and really funny when i watched the video that i took.. coz it recorded all the "ooohhhss.. and aaahhhs.." that i was exclaiming through out the show.

And guess who we met at the NDP Preview?! ms. kitying, ms. listya and mr. monkey- farid!!! Gosh.. it was a mini YJC 210 gathering in the good old national stadium. it's the last ndp to be held there by the way... So glad that we were part of the action!
Anyway, it was also the first time that i witnessed the entire Singapore be sooo "garang" where people were all adorned in red and cheering for Singapore. And i was complaning about Singaporeans not being patriotic when i was in Germany and witnessed how Germans cheer for their soccer team...

We went back to the National Stadium.. not there exactly but near there... went to the indoor stadium to watch the Philips Singapore Basketball Championships. That was where i got to watch erm.. Olympic teams battle it out in my favourite sport! I miss playing basketball.... sigh.. miss those days where every day was spent at the basketball court in the grounds of AISS and just playing with anyone under the hot sun and even in my school uniform. It was sooo unglam lor. But who cares, i had fun.

Anyway, how did we get the tickets? calvin's jiejie, wendy won the season tickets and we got to watch for free!!! Haha.. how come their family always seems to get the lobangs... haha..

Well, we found time to go down to East Coast Park to have a picnic and cycle. Haha.. of all pictures, i had to pick this one out where i look super unglam and horrid. But well, it was candid. We always have a hard time finding people to take photos of the both of us, because i feel paiseh having to approach some stranger to take photos of us.. Well, i did take a couple of other photos at ECP... but haha.. they are all of mr. calvin and if i posted those photos on my blog.. i think i'll never hear the end from him... lol!!! well, i leave it to your imagination to guess what kind of photos i took of him. hehe...

I can't remember which date it was exactly but i celebrated Anu's birthday at her place!!! And you know what's the funniest thing.. we didn't manage to take a photo with her! other than those her mum took for us... haha.. need to chase her for them! Well, Shiva, Hamsa and Darren were there too.. sad that Maymay had work and couldn't join... well, VADERS ROCK!!!!!!!

Betcha didn't know i could look this glam-ed up right?! Hahaha... CHECK OUT THE HOT BABE PATRICIA!!! hahaa.. that was taken at Union Ball 2006. Well, it was kinda hectic for me... coz i had to juggle between radio, nussu and studies... and that period was super busy for me and i had to do sooo many things in a very short time. But i'm glad that it's over and that that night was flawless. to me that is. The cute Kaka-ians were all dressed sooo beautifully and our very own Siwei and Douglas were the top 3 finalists!!! Douglas was named MR. NUS 2006... how cool~~~!!!

That's such a cute photo rite? Well, that day marked the start of our FOOD HUNT!!! Well, mr. calvin and i.. decided to spend our weekends in a fun and meaningful way... by searching for good food around town!!! And we did! Haha.. we checked out this fishball noodle stall near the Meridian Shopping Centre and my.. the noodles were great! However, i feel that the ba cuo mee is not as nice as the one found in vista point... where is it? it's near my house!! Ask me!!! hahaha..

Other than spending the month of September studying and mugging for our mid-term tests, we found time to celebrate my mummy's birthday at Jack's Place in causeway point. The food is delicious there.. we ate till we were stuffed... gosh.. mr calvin was soo amazed with the amount of food that we actually finished.. well, there went my diet~!

It was my mummy's 50th birthday!!! So fast lor.. i'm already 20 going on 21.... wow.. time flies. i think my mum can't believe herself that i'm this big already....

Well, that's all the highlights of my life up till today. Things are pretty much the same everyday.. stress studies and tv... of course there are the occasional dates with mr.calvin that make life fun, enjoyable and interesting... friends around me of course... make life even more spectacular... just met up with my sec sch girlfriends, peiling, huaiyu, shiling and yizhen... hehe.. been a long time already...

But i guess even as everything moves past us and everything changes...remember that there's only one thing constant in our lives... that is change. so try to adapt as much as you can to make life a lil' easier.

*peace*

take care and God bless.

Union Camp rocked!!!

2006-07-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I would like to say that Union Camp rocked once again! But not as much as last year though.. haha.. but it still rocked!

Well, i fell ill during the camp and so wasn't able to be "on" or "enthu" about things and could only slack around and just walk with 2 feet being dragged. thank goodness for a couple of really great friends, shiva, jes and violet specifically who actually like help take care of me la.. :)

The bunch of freshies that Kaka got was amazingly great! There are 24 of them.. erm... i'll try to recall everyone's names.
1. Ethan - our best male freshie!
2. Samantha- our best female freshie!
3. Si Wei - Mr. NUS Union Camp
4. Amanda - Ms. NUS Union Camp
5. Jason Tan - Jason with the Specs
6. Jason Quah - One of the 3 gays
7. Zhi Jia - One of the 3 gays
8. Douglas - Sick boy at camp
9. Yanling - Cute girl
10. Pamela- Tall, big-eyed gal
11. Simin - Curled long haired gal
12. Joanne - amanda look alike
13. Peiqi - pink bikini gal
14. Lex - sleepy eyed boy
15. Nigel - Mr. Salsa
16. Zhiming - humble boy
17. Christina - "dan yan pi" gal
18. Ze Ting - quiet gal
19. Tse Ching - quiet gal 2
20. Casie - a really small sized gal
21. Junni - quiet gal 3
22. Danielle- sweet looking gal
23.
24.

And our great councillors!!!
1. Jiahe
2. Kelly
3. Darren
4. Shiva
5. Cecilia
6. Grace
7. Violet
8. Yee Han
9. Yao Wen
10. Jeremy
11. Mark
12. Jedrick
13. James
14. Shalynn
15. Kim Hai
16. Eric
17. Soon Kit
18. David

Anyway, here's a big round of applause for you all for making Union Camp possible!!!

Sigh.. while i was away in camp... mr. calvin went to bangkok to do shopping over the weekend.. *so envious*... haha.. well, i fell sick on the day he left lor! can u believe it?! well, hope fully when he's back i'll be well again.. hee!

take care and God bless.

*peace*

Union Camp 2006!!!

2006-07-09T23:18:00.000+08:00

UNION CAMP 2006!!!

Union camp rocks and is gonna rock again this year!!! ;) I'm gonna be at Union camp together with my best pals, ms. shivaranjani and mr.darren, having a week's worth of fun and games! Too bad mr. calvin isn't gonna be there coz he's gonna fly to bangkok this week.. going to shop, have fun.. see bikini babes.. *sigh* lol!

Well, i wonder how things are gonna be for the bunch of us with a group of young freshies.. haha.. not exactly very young also la. hehe.. ;) but hopefully they won't be stuck up, ignorant, unfriendly.. etc etc.. IF NOT, WHAT FOR THEY JOIN UNION CAMP?!

Orientation, i personally feel is a great time to get to know people, even if u eventually don't think you'll like them. hahaha.. :P But anyhow, it's a great try to get to know people.. for the sake of connections, companionship and just for being friends. :)

I believe that things are gonna be great! ;) So, here's a pre-welcome to those freshies coming into group KAKA at union camp! Enjoy yourself, have great fun and just relax!

CheerS!!!

take care and God bless.

*peace*

Quote from a friend..

2006-07-06T01:53:00.000+08:00

'Let it sink in...' says:
we all have a past..be it past girlfriends, boyfriends, crushes etc..it can even be past experiences we saw..
'Let it sink in...' says:
that this past that we have shapes how we behave and prepare for the future..
'Let it sink in...' says:
or gives us more resolution not to make the same mistakes that gave us the same pain we experienced then..

Thank God for this friend.

Take care and God bless.

*peace*

Missing You...

2006-05-29T20:38:00.000+08:00

I miss your smile..
I miss your smell..
I miss your laughter..
even your hair..

I miss the things
we always do..
those things-
just me and you.

Everyday i think of you..
Missing you as i always do..
Hoping that me n you..
will be able to meet up soon.

p.s.: argh.. i miss my dearest mr.calvin.. I miss my family.. well, i miss everyone in fact.. Singapore of course and the variety of great food back home. can't wait to be back... another 2 more weeks!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

In Germany... Wee!!!

2006-05-13T03:43:00.000+08:00

I left for Germany on 11.05.06 at 8.15am for Frankfurt. And I was really thankful that close buddies like ms. Kit, ms. Shiva and ms.Sang were there to come send me off. ms. Listya tried to, but she was late. But the thought that my friends are so nice and thoughtful just makes me feel so proud that i have such great friends.

That day was also a significant day because it marked the day that my parents meet mr. Calvin for the first time. It was really awkward because my folks thought that mr. Calvin was mr. Gabriel because he came early and was with me, ms. xiaowen and ms. yue ru.. so erm.. mistaken identity. Only my dad seemed to recognise mr.calvin. My mum was obviously surprised. hahaha...

The flight was okay... with the airline food being tasty and with my MP3 to entertain me.. the whole journey did not seem sooo bad after all. On board the plane, we noticed a really pretty Thai Air Stewardess and she was like the sweetest looking girl i've ever seen. So the 4 of us... sooo "suah gu", went and ask her to take a photo w us at the end of our flight to Bangkok. Haha.. The next flight occurred like 1 hour later and on board were many germans. It was sooo weird to be the minority on board and they were really looking at us, 4 innocent looking teenagers... It was a little frightening and threatening but then, we got over it la.

Upon arriving in Frankfurt, it was already an "amazing race" kind of scenario for us. We tried to understand the signs, get to the baggage claim counter and get on the train to the Main Railway station. Thankfully we know a little german and so, getting around was a little manageable. There were a few kind hearted souls who helped us get to our hotel and we were really tired by the time we got back. Because we checked in to the hotel at around 8pm (2Am Singapore Time). This means that the 4 of us have been actively awake for almost 22 hours. CRAZY!!!

We woke up around 8am (2Pm Singapore time) and went down to have a great breakfast offered by the Hotel. We stayed in Europa Hotel and it was really close to the main railway station.. Which is gd and convenient for us. :) We explored the shopping areas and to our horror, found out that food stuff like Mcdo, Burger King was priced twice that of Singapore's. The mineral water was really as expensive as the beer and it was the first time, I paid close to S$6.20 for a bottle of 2Litre mineral water. Sheesh!!! And over here, i was really practically window shopping and did not dare to splurge on anything until I saw BIRKENSTOCK!!! Haha... i finally bought 1 pair and they are really cool! haha... So happy lor.. got one for mr. calvin too.. and I really can't wait for him to wear it. :P

We explored Frankfurt and the landmarks such as Ro:merberg and went to different 'estates' to explore. It was really cool travelling by the S Bahn, U Bahn and also the Tram... A great experience and I must say, the public transport of Frankfurt is really good and efficient.

Many friendly people helped us along the way, like the Handsome Baker that ms. xiaowen was really crazy about.. haha... the man who helped us buy the all day transportation ticket and also the lady who taught us how to do to the shopping centre.

I took a lot of scenery photos because the scenes of germany are really different from singapore. The weather is amazing and cool. I really like the weather, the atmosphere and even the people.
I'm thankful to God for the safe journey and our exploration of the city. Most of all, I'm thankful to God for my parents who have given me this opportunity to tour on my own. Yeah!

"In everything, praise God."

take care n God bless.

*peace*

Sentosa Rocks!!! - 030506

2006-05-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

Sentosa rocks!! Me, ms. shivaranjani, mr. darren and ms. joanne tried the Sentosa Luge! It was darn cool!!! haha.. it was super fun.. because we went up up into the sky and had a great view of the island!!! Besides, the Luge was a kind of go-kart style kind of sport which was sooo exciting!!! haha... You all have to try it!!! ;)

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Sleepless in Singapore.

2006-05-04T04:22:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since i have been sleepless. A really really long time. I can't remember the last time, I have never been able to get asleep and end up staring at the ceiling for hours.

Earlier, I was actually happy that exams were over, and that i could sleep properly and even not stay up to study. I was laughing over the fact that I crazily went to Sentosa immediately after my last paper to enjoy the sun, sand and the sea..

Well, I'm up... now at 4.24am... not studying and not mugging... not hyper and excited abt what happened at Sentosa yday... neither abt what might happen later. but just sitting and stoning..

thousands of thoughts, ideas, choices and decisions are running in my head.................................. that i think i'm going to have a headache.

I'm thankful there's such a thing as the internet where there's countless things for me to do - play games, chat, surf websites, read friendster...

well, I'm just stoning.. watching the clock tick by...

*sigh*

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Freedom!!!

2006-05-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

Today has been a really fantastic day!

1. I finished my exams.
2. I had fun in sentosa with ms. shivaranjani, mr. darren n ms. joanne!!!
3. I am just super happy!!! haha..

Enough said.

Good luck to those who haven't finished their exams.. especially mr.calvin. hehe.. Jia you and hang in there!!!

take care and God bless.

*peace*

I Wanna Love You Forever - Jessica Simpson

2006-05-02T21:01:00.000+08:00

You set my soul at ease
Chased darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it too
I know you do
I've got so much more to give
This can't die, I yearn to live
Pour yourself all over me
And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees

I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10,000 lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do
Cuz from the moment that I saw your face
and felt the fire of your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I wanna love you forever

My mind fails to understand
What my heart tells me to do
And I'd give up all I have just to be with you
And that would do
I've always been taught to win
And I never thought I'd fail
Be at the mercy of a man,
I've never been
Now I only want to be right where you are

In my life I've learned that heaven never waits
Let's take this now before it's gone
like yesterday
Cuz when I'm with you there's nowhere else
That I would ever wanna be no
I'm breathing for the next second
I can feel you
Loving me..
I'm gonna Love

Dear.. I wanna love you forever...

take care and God bless.

*peace*

Man Utd Vs. Chelsea Nite.. 290406

2006-05-01T10:56:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Babelicious girls ya? Haha... no la.. ms. Xiaowen looked absolutely hot that day. She's sooo attractive and smart!!! Haha.. Liverpool fan who loves soccer like mad.. I wonder why she came to watch Man Utd and Chelsea.. haha.. *gRinz*

Our dessert!!! Gosh... Breko Cafe is simply the coolest... Offering both yummy desserts and the great atmosphere!!! Check it out at Bugis Village ya? It's really affordable and we really enjoyed ourselves!

Haha.. He should be no stranger to you all now.. haha... mr. calvin joined us only after the match because he simply lurves working for motorola. LOL!!! It's super ironic that I'm a man utd fan but i'm wearing blue. He's a chelsea fan.. but he's wearing red!!! argh! So pissed with him that day coz he kept saying Chelsea was being nice to Man Utd by trashing them 3-0 and they could have repeated the 5-1 history. I couldn't help whacking him lor!!! haha... but of coz.. couldn't bear to continue for very long too.. hee!

Don't ask me why i look odd in the two photos. I think I din know where to look. *Faint* So sad.. i spoiled the photo when mr. calvin looks sooo hot in it. right ladies? hahahaha..

haha.. Qingquan... this guy ar... supports which ever team that is supposed to win for the match.. coz erm.. haha.. he has investments in games u know wat i mean..

mr. Gabriel and his friends.. haha.. Singapore's a really small world.. One of them is mr. Calvin's JC friend..

muahaha... My 'mummy' and erm... 'daddy'? hahaha... these two are sooo protective over me. especially ms. xiaowen. but sooo sweet.. they were just obeying mr.calvin's orders. hahahahaha... lol!!! just joking la. ;) a picture perfect shot!!!

Overall, it was a great outing and also an absolutely disastrous day to watch Man Utd defeated by Chelsea. haha... But i enjoyed myself with this new company.. haha.. They're really friendly fun-loving! ;) Till Saturday ya?

p.s.: pictures are courtesy of ms. xiaowen. don't ask me why the last few photos are smaller. I have no idea... not that i'm biased for putting my photo w mr.calvin more visible ya!!! hee!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Sad Sad...

2006-04-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

I watched Manchester United and Chelsea play yesterday.

Sad Sad.

Mr. Calvin wasn't there with me at the game that day.

Sad Sad.

Ruud Van Nistelrooy couldn't even play.

Sad Sad.

Chelsea beat Man U 3-0 in a very silly way.

Sad Sad.

And Mr. Calvin was cheering all the way.

Sad Sad.

Can't believe that Man Utd lost.... 3-0 in fact!!! It was a crushing defeat which i unfortunately witnessed at Gatsby yesterday with mr. Gabriel, ms. Xiaowen and a couple of their friends. sigh~ Never mind.. Next Season!!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Calvin's Favourite Song

2006-04-13T23:01:00.001+08:00

I Hate Myself For Loving You
(Joan Jett/Desmond Child)

Midnight gettin' uptight
Where are you
You said you'd meet me now it's quarter to two
I know I'm hangin' but I'm still wantin' you

Hey Jack
It's a fact they're talkin' in town
I turn my back and you're messin' around
I'm not really jealous don't like lookin' like a clown

I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

Daylight spent the night without you
But I've been dreamin' 'bout the lovin' you do
I won't be as angry 'bout the hell you put me through

Hey man betcha you can treat me right
You just don’t know what you was missin’ last night
I wanna see you beggin, say forget it just for spite

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that's why
I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you

I think of you ev'ry night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can't break free from the the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that's why
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you

I think this is the lyrics to mr. calvin's favourite song. =P Retro song. What a song eh? Haha... ;)

take care. God bless.

*peace*

My Ah Ma

2006-04-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

A lovely wife.

A mother to 5.

A grandmother to 12.

Sweet.

Lovable.

Kind-hearted.

Unselfish.

Cute.

Simply the best.

Thanks Ah Ma for everything.

Gam Sia.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Sigh..

2006-04-04T18:42:00.000+08:00

My last presentation is over. Marketing presentation. Really happy that all the projects are finally over and that this semester is really finishing fast... in another 2 weeks would be the final exams and that i'm barely prepared i feel!

time to mug hard that is. sheesh.. i just had to say the word, "mug" although i'm really sick of hearing it. the only thing that i want to do now is just sleep and sleep and sleep. i'm such a pig ain't i?

well, just for ppl's information, i'll be heading down to Germany on the 11May on a morning flight and that I'll only be back in Singapore on 16june. It's for immersion and i will be going with xiaowen, gabriel and yue ru along with some other unknown ppl from other groups. hehe.. hopefully it'd be great!!!

sigh..

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Amorous Adventurer! LOl~

2006-04-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

You're an Amorous Adventurer

Carefree and fun, you are easily excited when it comes to new experiences — and that includes relationships. It's not that you see boyfriends as frivolous pursuits, but you enjoy the art of the chase, and you work to make sure that long-term relationships maintain that sense of adventure and surprise.

You may not be the type of girlfriend who spends every waking hour with her man, but that doesn't mean you're not thinking about him. You're just an independent woman, and it's important for you to feel challenged and creative in most things you do. That's what makes any relationship an adventure.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

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take care. God bless.

*peace*

CoOkie!!!

2006-04-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

i baked the other day, last wed to be exact... coz i was stressed up... so baked chocolate chip cookies.. hehe.. i totally forgot to upload this cute and adorable photo of mr.calvin that i took that day i gave the cookies to him.. haha.. I baked cookies to share and also 1 extra special portion for him. He was so mean la............!!! haha.. he left the cookie in munchie monkey... waAh.. thank goodness i noticed. haha... mr. calvin, u deserve this -->*whack*. LOL! anyhow, this time's cookies are a bit tad hard... need to improve.. *sigh* haha... so mrs.field-wannabe, JIA YOU!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Clownie n ME!!!

2006-03-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

shocking! he wants to shoot me.. lol! well, mr. calvin sooo act cute.. hehe.. dun mind dying in his hands la. hahahahaha...

the queen and her loyal subject the clown!!! queen is gorgeous hor.. the clown ain't too bad either.. he looks gd here.. ;)

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS. EUNICE.. hehe.. She's 18!!! Woah.. partial freedom le.. hehe.. Time to get the driving lessons and license baby!!! She looked really nice in her new outfit.. haha.. which she bought during a shopping spree.. Anyway, it's just that i realised how much we've grown up together... How big we have all become and how soon we're gonna be adults.. and that we're no longer KIDS. sheesh... *sigh*

Well, me, mr. calvin and ms. eunice popped by causeway point to watch ICE AGE2.. it was sooo nice!!! funny and hilarious.. love the movie lor.. the 3 of us were laughing like mad coz the characters were sooo amusing.. the plot was interesting too..

me and mr. calvin's plan of watching v for vendetta were ruined when we realised that the movie was either too early or too late.. sigh... and so we ended up eating sakae sushi at eunice's work place.. haha.. finally got to see the mr.james too... ms. eunice often raves about this colleague of hers btw.

today was really like the tour of the ulu north.. first was causeway point, followed by sun plaza and then sembawang shopping centre and we ended off our tour in north point. haha... it was soo funny coz mr. calvin was like, "these places are really ulu lor".. haha... which i can't help but agree.. suddenly i didn't know where to bring him around.. hehe.. but anyhow, we have the neoprint machine to thank!!! hehe.. we took neoprints!!! something which i haven't done in ages.. NICE NOT!? haha.. lol! i tink i look piggie in them... shucks.. but anyhow, i hope mr.calvin enjoyed his tour of the North.. heE!

lastly, happy birthday once again ms.eunice.. luv ya gal!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

2006-03-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
And throwing their love away
but I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better
I must Stickwitu
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how ta appreciate me
I must stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me

That's why I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwitu
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how ta appreciate me
I must a stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need
And nowI'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you
Baby I'm with you, baby you're with me

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwitu
Forever
Nobody's gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how ta appreciate me
I must stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwitu
Forever
Nobody's gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how ta appreciate me
I must stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu

Pussycat Dolls rocks!!! Recently addicted to their songs... hehe.. =) Listen to their album!!! It rocks!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Winnie the Pooh n Friends!!!

2006-03-27T21:21:00.000+08:00

Haha... everyone knows i love winnie the pooh and friends and that it's on my laptop, in my handphone... shown in the things i use.. haha.. faint!!! but then, i got a new addition to my collection!! yippeE!!! haha... my dear gave me a lil' pillow which i have been wanting to buy.. but didn't.. haha... so happy.. that i kept posing with it n using my handphone to take photos of myself... I think i don't look too bad or piggie.. considering the lack of sleep and heavy eye bags that i have.. haha... yeah! think i should model for winnie the pooh man.. hahaha...

anyway, thanks to mr.calvin for being such a sweetie.. n buying the pillow for me.. which i have no idea when he bought it.. coz we saw it a long time ago... still.. THANKS!!! haha.. i'm so easily contented hor.. hehe.. ^.^ thanks again!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Egoistic Biatch

2006-03-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

It took me a really long time to swallow my pride and think back and realise what an egoistic biatch i am.

I realised that all i care is myself and that i often neglect the ones who care a lot for me.

I realised that i just think i'm the one correct.

I realised that i don't show my appreciation to the ones i love.

I realised that i take certain people for granted.

I realised that i don't tell people my real feelings for fear of just losing them.

I realised that i always have no sense of priority.

I realised that i don't tell people my real feelings again.. because i thought it was a sign of weakness.

I realised that i have become so independent that i just choose not to depend on others.

*wake up pat*

mr. calvin, i know that sometimes, i make weird comments, do weird stuff and sometimes even have the weirdest kind of explanation/justification for my actions. i can't bring myself to say what i really feel, just because i have this huge ego and i have been trained to just accept things and just go with the flow instead. i've learnt not to depend on other people all these years because i'm always alone (only child ma) and so, this characteristic is with me.

well, i just don't want you to feel obliged to do things for me and i just don't want u to feel that i'm a burden to u.. i just dun wan u to feel that i'm sooo "ma-fan"... and lastly i dun wan you to feel that i'm a form of restriction to u... *sigh*

so, give me some time. to be used to this dependence i have on u. to be used to having you as my pillar. to be used to the fact that there's someone who's willing to let me depend on. to be used to the fact that there's someone who is there for me to depend on. to be used to just having you.

and sometimes, i just dun really mean whatever i say. sometimes, i say things out of spite or without thinking. sometimes, i say things after rationalising that it's a politically correct answer. sometimes, i just blabber.

but always remember that u mean a lot to me. even if u dun seem to think so or be sure of. well, that's coz u just dunno yet.

hope that u finish reading this post, with a clearer understanding of this girl u're stuck with as ur girlfriend.. hee.. lastly, i luv u sweetie...

take care. God bless.

*peace*

p.s.: sorry to those who have to read through this. haha..

My Piano

2006-03-24T11:44:00.000+08:00

Its black and white ivory keys.

Its shiny black exterior.

Its 3 lovely pedals.

Neglected over time.

It stands at a corner.

Ignored by its owner.

It needs attention.

Silent sighs and cries gone unnoticed.

But today, its owner paid attention to it and played.

Even though it sounded horrid,

it was contented that at least it has been played.

wrong key.

wrong timing.

wrong emotions.

but it just felt right.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Follow Through - Gavin Degraw

2006-03-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I,haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet

So,since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you'll have to follow through
You have to follow through

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I‘m holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So,since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you'll have to follow through
You have to follow through

The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart

So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday

So since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
For you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow

Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?

I watched Laws of Attraction on Star Movies this afternoon. Haha.. i felt i deserved the mini break and just sat and watched the romantic movie while eating my dinner. Pierce Brosnan is sooo hot!!! haha.. But overall the movie was really sweet and really a v untypical plot... I mean, it really makes a lot of sense. This song was played in the movie and i thought it was really nice. It's a nice movie to catch... For those who haven't watched it yet, go catch it. hehe.. :) Enjoy!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

2 Years

2006-03-20T00:08:00.000+08:00

It's been 2 years...

2 years since you left...

2 years have gone past...

I wonder where you are now...

Things are pretty much the same down here...

Wonder how it is over there...

Your picture's still in my book...

Your smile is still in my memories...

You are still you in my mind...

It's been 2 years...

Forgive me.

For all my wrong judgements...

Forgive me.

For not being able to say a proper Good bye...

Forgive me.

In Memory of Suresh... (16.03.2004)

Some days are meant to be remembered. It's just one of those days.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Exercise!!!

2006-03-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

I haven't been exercising since my jc school days and my exercise routine just went down hill as Uni started. Everyone knows that I'm really 'into' sports and that it is said by ms.ranjani that "I am a crazy gal who loves running". But all the passion for running just disappeared when knee and ankle problems set in. It sucked.

But i just couldn't take it anymore!!! SO OFF I WENT ON A RUNNING SPREE!! haha.. more like a jog la. My stamina has decreased tremendously after such a long long time... But it was like i was free to run and run and run..... running past people, past pets and past kites flying in the sky...

The sun just shone down on me... and as i ran and sweat... it seemed as though every drop of my problems went off together with the sweat... I loved the sun and i think my skin just got a shade darker... hahaha... But it was good. It felt good. I feel good.

Now, i'm back at home and mummy,daddy told me that they din wan me to run anymore. because it's not too gd for women. haha... something to do with their reproductive system. lol! But never mind, I still love running.

so, when you are sick and tired, troubled or just bo-liao-ted.. go for a run. it helps.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

News of the Decade!!!

2006-03-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

Haha... yep!!! News of the Decade!!! Haha... coz I'm 20 this year.. so it marks the start of a new decade of my life. Haha.. And so i've got news! Haha.. Well, everyone should know from the photo that I posted in the earlier post.

Yesh... I am attached. In mr. shahul's perspective, "finally".
I think that I'm just being a sucker, allowing the picture to try to say a thousand words and not introduce this important person in my life to people who are concerned with me (aka. readers of my blog).

Well, Friends, Strangers and Family (Only Eunce will read this), I proudly would like to introduce mr. calvin, my boyfriend. :) Phew! That was freaky. And for those who find this lame, too bad! lol!

mr. calvin's a great guy who's really humourous and charming. Yesh, he's from NUS Biz Sch and he loves badminton and Chelsea F.C.!!! Oh ya, a lot of girls find him cute lor.. *grinz* even mr. darren thinks so. haha... He's smart and really a colourful character who never fails to make me smile. To me, he's everything that i could ever wish for and well, he rocks my world!!!

*clap clap clap* hahaha.. nice speech ya? Well, that's about it. so, yeah.. thanks a lot for reading this blog post whether it's coz u had no choice to, kpoz or just interested to find out more (nicer way of saying kpoz).

well, to mr.calvin(can't believe i'm postin this on the worldwideweb and who knows who might see this):
ure.the.sweetest.thing.that.God. has.given.to.me.
im.so.thankful.to.have.met.u.at.the.taxi.stand.that.day.
weve.really.come.a.long.way.n.weve.got.much.more.to.go.
remember.that.ill.stickwitu.for.a.very.long.time.
hope.u.arent.regretting.huh.
ure.the.best.sweetie.
i.luv.u.always.
n.forever.
calvin.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Lesson from Betty Cooper

2006-03-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

I was reading my favourite Archie Comics.. which I would like to thank my Aunt Julie for being such a wonderful lady by sending me comics all the way from U.S.A.!! Well, Archie Comics are my love and that i have enjoyed reading it since i was a lil' girl... i think when I was in Primary school... and my interest is still surviving! Haha...

Well, i was reading one comic strip about how Riverdale High had a crisis situation and that there was a piece of news going around - that the school was closing for good because it was having some structural defects. The news of the demolition spread like wild fire and Betty was determined to investigate the truth about it. Only to find out from Mr. Weatherbee, that it was just a hoax.

But Betty aka. My Favourite Character, wanted to find out how such a piece of news spread. So, she went to ask around and eventually found out that it actually started from her, commenting to Veronica Lodge that she hoped that school will be on the beach because of Summer. And that, the news just spread in different manners in all directions.

Well, I know that there are some people who are speculating STUFF... haha... So before any weird news get around...

There. Just to keep it short. Lol!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Horoscope Readings

2006-03-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

Though i know that Christianity does not support fortune telling, horoscope reading, tarot card readings and a couple of games which are said to look into the divine future, one can't help to be curious to just read on. I was just surfing the net randomly because a mr. scorpio asked me whether i tot that scorpio guys were flirts or "not good boys". hahaha... And while i was 'researching', I came across this site which talks about horoscope signs compatibility. hahaha... Lame rite? but i was just curious mah...

So anyway... here's the scoop:
You're Capricorn & He's Scorpio

This is tied with Taurus as the number-one soulmate love match for you. You can truly find a forever love with a Scorpio boy. You have a strong physical chemistry together, and he has a passionate and intense side that brings out the feelings you so often keep hidden. You become more romantic and open with him, and it makes you feel great. He will also feel wonderful with you, because your loyal and trustworthy nature will make him feel secure enough to really open up to you. You often have conflicts with other signs because of your strong-willed personality, but he has a will to equal yours and this will actually prevent tempers from flaring out of control. You balance each other beautifully. A soulmate match.
http://www.myjellybean.com/soulmate/capricornscorpio.html

Woah... after reading it, for a moment, i was just *stunned* hahaha... Lol.. I don't know why. I know the site can be bogus... but one can't help imagining.. sheesh.. But of course, it was at the expense of a particular poor mr. scorpio out there.. haha!!! but of course, there are those which oppose the idea like... :

Scorpios need for peace and quiet may be the catalyst that brings them together in the beginning, while Capricorn is attracted to what he/she believes to be a fairly uncomplicated person. When the true nature of Scorpio begins to get through to Capricorn he/she finds the strength of his/her emotions to be staggering. When Scorpio finds that Capricorns main focus of attention is on career concerns he/she is apt to become jealous and demanding in a big way. Financial security takes top priority in both their lives so this should not become a sore spot for them.
They can reach an agreement on a stable homelife and financial matters but little else as the personalties here are too widely diverse to support a long term relationship. Should Scorpio try to force his/her personal views on Capricorn or try any of the other controlling ploys Capricorn will soon see through his/her efforts at manipulation and will become very angry. A nice quiet life will not likely be achieved with these two.
Sexually, Scorpio is the more active sign and may feel that Capricorn is not being true when Capricorn persists in bringing his/her work to bed or begs off with a headache. This is not a well aspected match and definitely not made in Heaven.
http://www.starlightastrology.com/sco-cap.htm

Lol!!! So amusing right? Well, i realised that horoscopes mean nothing... They are just like man-made stuff... and it's really up to the 2 people to decide for themselves how things are going to work out... So anyway, it's just for entertainment and leisure purposes! haha... If you're bo-liaoed, just try surfing net for such stuff.. U'll certainly have a few good laughs!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Fallin' by Mya

2006-02-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

You complete me like any caring boy I need be
And when I'm in your arms
I feel free
Fallen
My heads up in the clouds
In love I'm proud to say it loud
Like an accident it happened
Out of nowhere it just happened
And I ain't mad at all
Because

I've fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get, don't wanna get up
Because of love
Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up, don't wanna get up
Because of love

Baby, to let you get away is crazy
So I'm doing what it takes to make you pledge your love to me
You see, 'cause I'm trying to be your lady
Forever and ever, baby
The picture wouldn't be the same if you weren't standing next to me

Can't you see I'm fallen
Fallen
head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get, don't wanna get up
Because of love
Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up, don't wanna get up
Because of love

You compliment me
Not an accesory
You're necessary
You could never speak bad words against me
You been with me
Security
Are you here with me
You're my happiness, my joy (joy)
And it's all because of you boy
I look forward to the time I spend with you
Whatever it is we do
I'm fallen for you boy

Fallen
I've fallen
Head over heels for you
Fallen for you(Touch me)
Touch me(Hold me )
Hold me(Love me)
Love me(Kiss me)
Kiss meIn loooove with you(Talk to me)
Talk to me(Caress me)
Mmm(Play with me) D
Don't wanna give up(Explore me)
You're my everything
Chorus (Until fade)
fallen head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get, don't wanna get up
Because of love
Fallen
Head over heels
I've fallen
In love with you
I've fallen
And I can't get up, don't wanna get up
Because of love

I came across this song in ms. shiva's compilation of r&b songs.. it's a really nice, old track by mya and it's really nice.. perfectly describes a certain girl's sentiments to a certain guy... *u know who u are.. lol! *

take care. God bless.

*peace*

MoS... A fantastic place to chill...

2006-02-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

I finally dropped by MoS after such a long time of contemplating and rejecting offers from friends and finally, when ms. peiling called me to ask if i was going to MoS... i decided to join her. Haha.. that is of coz after i knew mr.calvin was also going to the same place with his friends..

Well, i was actually going there with a heavy heart, coz i felt guilty for hanging out. but when i saw Zuxian and Peihuan and recognisable faces from NUS, i was happy! haha... the place was crowded and packed! It was really cool that there were different areas playing different songs. Drinks and dance was definitely on the itinery and it was great to just let loose for the nite!!!

the music that was playing was a list of club hits, rnb hits, retro hits and i totally loved the selection of the songs! the toilets were beautiful and cool except for the vomit that was in some of the cubicles.. haha.. the photo above was taken in the toilet actually! nice hor...

it was really great to just enjoy myself and thanks for the great company my dear frens, ms. peiling, ms. lay hoon and mr. piggie (xiongjie).. thanks a lot... thanks to mr.calvin too for being such a gentleman! hahaha... Lol!

Those of you who haven't checked MoS yet.. go!!! hahaha..

take care. God bless.

*peace*

My Samsung E700A... =(

2006-02-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Waaah... the buzzing sound coming from my hp... reminds me of the machine that detects whether a person is still living/dead.. sheesh..

I really adore this phone since i got it in JC2 and it has been my companion throughout my school days... and everyone in my JC class know that i cannot live without my phone! It was my only source of contact with my sec sch/ pri sch friends and that.. it was really something i couldn't live without. I was dependent on it..

I sent the phone for repair once last year.. coz my screen had some defect and it also suddenly went black... i went into panic mode but because the phone was stil under warranty.. i managed to get the repair done for free... BUT NOW.... I wan to repair my phone.. but it costs like $183.75!!!! Sheesh, i might as well get a new phone lor!!!

Oh ya.. wanna know how my phone got spoilt? It was all mr.calvin's fault la!!! he called me on my hp today... and the next thing i knew, my hp screen went black and blank!!!! arghh... haha... but i whacked n scolded him already.. haha.. now.. feeling a bit paiseh.. lol!!!

Although my E700A is in need of repair... i shall let it rest first.... and my mummy said i could get a new phone!!! haha... eh.. dunno whether happy or not leh.. haha!!! but anyhow, i'll just keep my fingers crossed ya?

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Valentines' Day!!! 14022006

2006-02-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

First of all, Radio Pulze Launch was like awesome!!! Haha.. it was really cool and i got to take photos with Shan Wee!!! Haha.. my favourite Dj who's like so cute.. and I was really a bimbo in front of him la.. laughing and giggling and my whole face really turned red!!! Sheesh.. can't believe!!! I was really happy that day.. though I accidentally 'popped' a party popper in the face of Prof. Shih at the launch.. Everyone was like "You want to die is it?" haha... But Dylan was like," i wish i had your guts.." hahaha.. of coz he was just joking..

I thought i really looked nice on Vday.. coz i was in smart casual for the Launch occasion and so was dressed super 'office-girl' but i put on slight make-up.. haha.. so i look better than i usually am. haha... I just had to take a photo of myself la!!!

Ok... so, i exchanged gifts with mr.calvin! I got him from YJ's bazaar, this personalised test tube with his name.. it's sooo cute lor!!! mini test tube.. I also got ms. ranjani and mr. weiming similar ones.. haha.. i really think it's simple la.. and just a token of appreciation and lurve for all my great frens out there... heE! Eh, apparently only 3 lucky ones got it.. haha...

Well, mr. calvin and i were dateless on Vday! so we decided to heck it and just hang out! haha.. headed down to marina sq la.. it was like sooo packed with couples and mr. weiming was like sooo lame by saying, "eh, u 2 awkward rite.. aiya, just hold hands la.." when we calld him. WAAAAHHH.. wanna whack him le.. haha.. But anyhow, the 2 of us headed down to Yuki Yaki for the buffet and we pigged out!!! haha.. till a salmon cheese stick was left swimming in the soup.. haha..

After dinner, we caught "Fun with Dick and Jane" and it was super funny but the plot really made no sense.. I didn't know mr. calvin was a fan of jim carrey like my dad, but anyhow, he was laughing throughout the movie la!!! haha.. actually everyone was. including me! sheesh.. but it was seriously a no-brainer kind of plot but the stunts that jim and tea leonie pulled with their scams and everything was really cute and funny... We couldn't stop talking about the movie lor!!! was complaining about sleeping in the cinema.. but ended up wide awake after that... how ironic..

The both of us were really tired by the day and it was hilarious coz we were just wandering around Marina Sq and walking in circles without realising!!! We always seem to get lost in that shopping centre lor.. coz it's like darn huge? So, after walking in circles, we decided to head down to City Link and wander there... till we went up the escalator and saw a couple like making out and I was so shocked that i just "WOah"-ed and Calvin was like laughing soooo hard at me la.. tootz. Starbucks @ Raffles City Shopping Centre was closed, so we had to hang out at Coffee and Toast for the rest of the night.. drinking our lemon teas and eating the cute heart-shaped brownies ms. lorraine gave to me for vday.. they were nice! so, thanks babe...

But nothing was more hilarious than seeing mr. edwin from aiss 4e2 and his gf.. Can't imagine that guy, who used to be a nerd and sleeping throughout all the lessons was holding hands w a girl... and on the train, there was really intense passion between the two of them.. I'm sooo sorry!!! i didn't mean to peeked or anything.. it was just in my face. haha... LOl!!! sorry mr.edwin didn't mean to like make u paiseh or anything..!

The day that i dreaded... ended up to be pretty well and enjoyable... haha.. well, company was great and it was definitely an eventful day!!! ;) Hope everyone had a great time too!!!

love ya folks. happy belated vday...

thanks shan wee for making my day.

thanks mr.calvin for the great company and the rose. (remember wat i told u abt the rose? haha.. woah.. can add on to my 1st times list. eh, great world city next time ya? lol! )

take care. God bless.

*peace*

J.Lo Wanna Be

2006-02-12T20:12:00.000+08:00

Wowee... haha.. I love this pair of shades which i got after the YJC Values Day Bazaar. Me, ms. listya, ms. kitying and mr. shahul were like walking around, bitchin' here and there and shopping around in northpoint. It has been really a long time since i shopped in that mall. It was my "favourite" haunt in both secondary and JC days and having not gone there for such a long time, really brought back fond memories.. Haha...

Anyway, i was really into shades at the beginning of the year.. and was constantly on the search for a pair of great shades for me to accessorise with when i go out with friends or just chilling by the beach. Well, i found it!!! At the funniest place.. at the men's section of John Little. The shades caught my eye and there i was, trying every single pair there was. And i dragged mr. shahul to join me. We were acting cool in front of the mirror!!! Haha.. he was Mr. Shah Ruhk Khan wannabe and i was J.Lo wannabe. It was really fun and ms.listya also tried one on which had a space effect with it. haha... Well, i picked out one.. which i simply adored and mr.shahul also picked out one.. so we were really mr.shah ruhk khan and j.lo for the day.. haha... he paid for my shades by the way... haha... thanks mr.shahul... *muacks!!!*

hehe.. he paid for the shades on account that i'll get him a super big bday present for his 21st bday! haha... now, i have to start saving up for it!!! LOL!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Chocolate is the way to a woman's heart...

2006-02-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

*Chocolate*
The mention of it, makes girls go ooo... ahhh... But i know of some girls who really don't dig chocolates the way most of us do. It's a really sinful indulgence and it's really sets the endorphins soaring after just 1 piece. Chocolates are the best cure for depression, unhappiness and the best company for sad nights and happy ones.

To me, chocolates are a little part of heaven. Everytime, i indulge in chocolates.. the amazing feeling 'Happy!!" sets in.. till the point that i think chocolates are all i need. But they are fattening la...

As i stood looking at my fridge.. i noticed a red Kit Kat, snack sized. Just the right thing to cure my mood swings that i have been having this entire week.. It was a melted pack which i put in the fridge to prevent it from becoming liquid choc... I noticed that all the other chocolates have been open except this one... and I was really thankful that nobody ate it yet.. coz it has been really sitting in my fridge for about 3 months already.. haha... gross? there's a reason la..

The kit kat was given to me by my all time big NUS tutor crush, mr. ccf. haha... can't write his name.. coz it's so *paiseh*. But anyhow, he gave it to my tutorial class just before our final exam and that was the last time i talked to him. The chocolate sat in the comforts of my pencil case.. until it started melting that i decided to put it in the fridge... His charm, wit, humour, looks... and his chocolate... really took my breath/attention away... and perhaps my heart away.. haha... too exaggerated ya? :P well, that piece of chocolate was the only thing for me to remember him.. other than the scribbles of notes he wrote on my essay... but yeah... *sigh*...

I didn't want anyone else eating the chocolate... I didn't want to share it with someone else... I needed it... I needed it to make me "HAPPY!!"...

thanks mr.ccf for the yummy chocolate.. which by now, the wafer in the kitkat.. is a bit "lao-hong" (not crispy) but it's still yummy... like how yummy-licious you are to me.. haha!!! sheesh..

p.s.: Guys who haven't gotten their gals any Vday pressies yet and are panicking.. haha... try making a huge piece of heart-shaped chocolate.. by melting bars of cadbury milk chocolate.. and setting the liquid in a huge heart shaped cutter... let it cool and set it in the fridge. using icing, write both your names on the chocolate. put it in a nice box.. Voila! A great simple gift. Maybe not so simple for those kitchen idiots. haha...

take care. God bless.

*peace*

ELECTIONS... hai..

2006-02-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

Should i run for exco for Bizcom???

Can i cope?

Can i manage?

What am i looking for? Success? Achievement? Fun?

What about Honorary General Secretary of Radio Pulze?

Am i being greedy?

Am i overestimating myself?

hai.... think think... Bizcom Elections coming liao... think think think... pray too...

take care. God bless.

*peace*

LAUNCH OF NUS CAMPUS RADIO -~RADIO PULZE!!!~

2006-02-08T19:57:00.000+08:00

It's exactly 1 week from the day that we all have been waiting for... It's been 4 years since Dawei started our NUS Students' Deejay Group... and it's been 4 years since Radio Pulze started operations as a Club....

now.. it's going to be reality. Recognised as NUS CAMPUS RADIO, it'd be a great awesome hit!!! All of us are really eager for it to be launched!!!

Well, i hope to see everyone down there at ARTS Forum on Valentines' Day.. To spread the love of music... and to just spread love.... Bring your loved ones or friends to share the moment with us.... from 12-2pm... It'll be great!!!

Besides, we are boasting a great number of acts along with an appearance from Shan Wee!!! gOSH... how i wish i was a leggy, attractive and pretty gal!!! haha...

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Turn On. Tune In.
RADIO PULZE Launch!
14th February 2006
NUS Central Forum
12 - 2 pm

Come meet 987fm DJ Shan Wee who would be making an appearance!
AND..Catch performances by our CAMPUS-GROWN TALENTS!
LIVE BANDS & DANCEPERFORMANCES!
ALSO...VALENTINE'S DAY SONG DEDICATION!
Nothing conveys your love better like a good ol'fashion song...Come hear us and be heard!EVERYONE'S INVITED!!!

Turn on, Turn In, Radio Pulze Launch!
Radio Pulze
NUS Students' Deejay Group
radiopulzelaunch@gmail.com

Someone, Save Me

2006-02-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

Save Me by Corrinne May

I drift, I burn, I fly
When you sing lullabies
I'm helpless, I'm yearning
I'm like the putty in your hands

I laugh, I dream, I cry
When you take me on a roller coaster ride
You see me through and through
You see just who i am
Just take my hand and

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you

I had a dream that i was falling from the sky
At 90 miles an hour I was bound to crash and die
But out of nowhere you came and rescued me
There must be some grace in the touch of your face
I'm so happy that I've found you
I'm no longer afraid

Oh ' cause you
Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows Heaven knows I've been waiting

Before i met you
Life was slow-mo
So slow-mo
I thought i had it figured out
But you came and turned my whole world upside down

Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows you've come to
Save me from this place
Heaven knows I'm falling
For you, my sweet embrace
Heaven Knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting for you
Waiting for you---------------

I love this song a lot... i dunno why. It's just so sweet.... a perfect song to sing for someone who can save you from the depths of this treacherous world and from misery. Don't know why after reading the lyrics... a person is appearing in my head... *oh please.. go away...*

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Rings

2006-02-07T22:58:00.000+08:00

I have always thought that rings were significant in many ways. A gift to a loved one, a friend... Signifying different things from love to friendship... to Lord of the Rings.... And it was only today that i realised that a ring is representative of one special thing which is "eternity".

So anyway, me and ms. ranjani have always been arguing about whether rings are now considered signs for people to look out for when they meet someone new. Haha... Well, right now, in our time, it's a norm to think that people to wear rings on their either, 2nd, 3rd or 4th finger are attached.. or are erm, romantically involved with another person. I don't know how true it is, but yeah.. i realised that it's quite true among friends i know.

I used to think that the fingers on a person's hand and the rings a person wears on his/her hand is representative of their marital status. Like for the thumb, single. Index, attached. Middle, engaged. Fourth, married. Fifth, divorced/widowed. Hahaha... lame right? But i thought so leh...

ms. ranjani can't believe the 'nonsense' that i have been "believing" all this while and that she strongly feels that a person's choice to wear a ring is entirely regardless of his/her marital status. i on the other hand, am sceptical about it. i didn't want people to mistake me as being attached when i am not, just because i wear a ring on my third finger.

well, now... i heck care.

coz... i just bought a lovely ring... that i like.. haha~ so... i'm gonna wear it. haha.. till i get sick of seeing it.

i don't know wat's up with this blog post. i tink i'm tired... but i'm gonna leave you with this site... which is really interesting... it talks about the meaning of wearing a ring on each of the fingers. haha.. chanced upon it.. lol! okok.. i searched for it la.. heE!

Enjoy: http://members.aol.com/katydidit/fingers.htm

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Outing to the Istana.. Feb 2006.

2006-02-05T20:44:00.001+08:00

We visited our country's very-own Villa in the heart of Orchard and enjoyed the beautiful sun and company of one another.... It was really cool! because it was my first time checking the place out... once, only seen on the telly and now, i get to roam around it for a day!!! haha...

Don't we just look lovely in pink??? haha.. Chinese New Year mood i tink... me, ms. ranjani n ms. kitying wore pink!!! haha... the pink ladies!!! hahaha...

The 3 beautiful flowers... haha... ms. listya, ms. shamala devi n me!!!

ms. kitying n i!!! haha... look at the beautiful green grass behind us... so nice lor... aiyo.. we blocked off the swans... haha...

that's me... perhaps advertising for the sentosa flowers exhibition... haha... ms. ranjani was naming all the flowers in the garden... she can be the tour guide... SENTOSA... HIRE US PLS??? lol!!!

to end the day, a lovely group photo of the 5 babes of 210!!! haha... really nice array of colours... hehe.. MAGNIFICENT. ;)

take care. God bless.

*peace*

210 BBQ at Pasir Ris Park in Dec 2005...

2006-02-05T20:28:00.000+08:00

Haha.. i know the event is like long long time ago... but i only got the photos recently from my dear friend, ms. Listya. it was a really crazy day and time and i really enjoyed myself! i tink i blogged about it.. haha.. but anyhow, here are the photos!!! ^.^

u see that girl in brown and pink??? that's me piggin out on the delicious chicken wings... haha...

Haha.. the 3 of us, me, ms. ranjani and ms. shamala devi are aspiring to be the 3 hottest indian dancers... Lol!!!

don't u just love the spotlight on us??? there's ms. listya, ms. ranjani, ms. lorraine, ms. shamala devi and ms. linda.... THE BABES OF CTG210!!!

our class... ctg210.. the babes and the baboons and our dear handsome Mr. Ho... hahaha..

another photo... sianz... it's so dark!!!! can't see everyone... but there's ms. shamala devi, ms. linda, ms. listya, me, ms. lorraine, ms. ranjani, mr. ho, mr. shahul, mr. kama s/o kuttupudeen, mr. yewchong, mr. bhara, mr. terence n ms. farid-ah. hahaha... Cheers!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

blood donation

2006-02-04T00:36:00.000+08:00

The words, "Blood Donation" really makes me squirm. The thought of all the red fluid in your blood flowing into a bag is really gross especially when it's with the use of a gigantic needle. I am really put off by the idea of donating blood and there's really a perfectly good reason for that - I'm afraid of blood.

I know that i have fallen a couple of times, got scarred a number of times, bled a number of times and often, i don't faint at the sight of blood. But i really am put off by the sight of it. I don't donate blood also because of the fear of needles and it started when i was about 8 years old when i was admitted to hospital for Appendicitis and the stupid intern had to poke my hand like 3-4 times to get the needle in. It was my first trip to the hospital and my first needle jab... n so, enough said.

Because of this fear, i cry whenever i have to take blood test.. But thank goodness to theories such as peer pressure, i haven't done that in public yet. haha... ^.^

ms. ranjani recently had an interest in donating blood to the Red Cross and the Blood Bank. I know it's for a good cause, but ouch... a needle poke and maybe side effects... so that's what stopping me again. But seriously, she's really determined to donate it. And the opportunity came when mr. mingzhou's fren's jc lecturer had an appeal for blood type B+. the lecturer is suffering from leukemia. i am actually also blood type b+ but on hearing about donating it, i called ms. ranjani instead. what a sucker i am. haha...

but it's a real appeal. Anyone who's reading this blog, please call Esther at 97405174 regarding the donation.

I still maintain that i will not be donating. personal fear. i know i need to overcome them. but... it's not as easy as it seems. one day i will.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Chinese New Year Card

2006-02-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

Haha... i was wondering if i'd receive a Chinese New Year card from someone, who always sends me one every year.. since i have known him like 5 years ago... haha..

Chinese New Year day came and went and still no card....

Was wondering if the tradition had been broken....

Then... i opened my mailbox today... and saw a pink envelope.... with my name written neatly on it... *wait a minute* i recognise the handwriting........... it looks extremely familiar...

the one and only CNY card addressed to me.. i opened it...

i smiled...

it was him.

thanks mr.yalai for the card. it's so thoughtful of u... as always.

happy chinese new year to you too!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Marriage 1101E

2006-02-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

After starting semester for like soooo long, i finally bumped into an OGL whom i have not seen for a very long time - mr. jiahao. haha... I was busy yakking on the phone with Eunice, who was confirming details about our trip down to my Dad's shop today. And he bent over and looked at me, and waved. haha... I was pleasantly surprised..

he was nicknamed "mr. eligible bachelor" of our arts og and really has a lot of supporters behind him... an array of gals and a team of soccer boys.. who claim that he has legs which move at the speed of lightning or something.. haha.. sounds exaggerated ya.. but, it's true. he's really fast in soccer... saw him in action at arts open last yr ma..

well, we were chatting on msn just awhile ago... and we were talking about meeting the right person for the right reason at the right time. i was surprised that a guy like him, is actually patiently waiting for the right girl to appear. how often i have heard guys and gals jumping in and out of relationships and treating it very lightly.. but he really has patience, to wait for God to help him pick out the right girl. that i admire of a guy. coz almost 99% of guys i know, just can't bear to be single... and feel that it's almost shameful to be single. hahaha... *guys! time to defend urselves!!!*

it was interesting how mr.jiahao put the topic as marriage 1101e.. an exposure... perhaps for us to discuss about what are the pros and cons of waiting for someone whom we don't know who we are waiting for... how to really rely on God to pinpoint and help us make our decisions. i guess, only time and faith will tell... well, that was lecture 1 today... an introduction.. i wonder when lecture 2 will occur... haha...

"catch up with u another time, mr. jiahao"!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

J. ROMAN & SOLUNA LYRICS- Where are You?

2006-01-31T22:20:00.000+08:00

[J. Roman]

I know you out there baby

So where?

There's someone out there for me...

I know she's waiting so patiently

Can you tell me her name?

This life long search is gonna drive me insane

How does she laugh, how does she cry,

What's the color of her eyes,

Does she even realize I'm here?....

Where is she?Where is she?Where is she?Where is this beautiful girl?

Who is she?Who is she?Who's gonna complete my world?

Where is she?Where is she?Where is this beautiful girl?

Who is she?Who is she?Who's gonna complete my world?

La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..

[Soluna]

I'm starin out at the sky...

Prayin' that he will walk in my life

Where is the man of my dreams?

Yeah...I'd wait forever, how silly it seems

How does he laugh, how does he cry,

What's the color of his eyes,

Does he even realize I'm here?....

Where is he?Where is he?Where is he?Where is this beautiful guy?

Who is he?Who is he?Who's gonna take me so high?

Where is he?Where is he?Where is this beautiful guy?

Who is he?Who is he?Who's gonna take me so high?

La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..

[J. Roman]

Where are you...?There's someone out there for me...

[Soluna]

There's someone out there for me...

[J. Roman]

I know she's waiting so patiently..

[Soluna]

So patient...

[J. Roman]

Can you tell me her name?

[Soluna]

Can you tell me his name?

[J. Roman]

This life long search is gonna drive me insane

[Soluna]

How does he laugh, how does he cry, What's the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I'm here?....

[J. Roman]

Where is she?Where is she?Where is she?Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she?Who is she?Who's gonna complete my world?

[Soluna]

Where is he?Where is he?Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he?Who is he?Who's gonna take me so high?

[Together]

La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..

[J. Roman]

(Yeah...I know you're out there...)

[Together]

La la la la la la la.. la la la la laaa.. La la la la la la la..

[J. Roman]

Where are you?

I'ma look all over the world baby

Cuz I know you're out there

I know it might sound crazy...

But I love you

La la la la la la la..

Haha... another nice song i heard on the radio... sounds sweet.. like innocent waiting and anticipating. But for a cynic like me... it sounds like a song for a despo. But let's not ruin things.. It's really a sweet song... Yeah... Both me and ms. ranjani.. would like to ask... "WHERE ARE YOU?!" haha.... U better turn up before we both turn to each other.. HAHAHA... lol! just jokin~ SHEESH.. now i make us sound despo.. hahaha... *sorry, ranjani dearie...*

for the second blog of the day.

for the second time of the day.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Ashlee Simpson's "L.O.V.E"

2006-01-31T21:58:00.000+08:00

"L.O.V.E."

I'm talkin' bout love
All my girls stand in a circle and clap your hands this is for you
Ups and downs highs and lows no matter what you see me through
My boyfriend he don't answer on the telephone
don't even know where the hell he goes
But all my girls we're in a circle and nobody's gonna break through

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

I'm talkin' bout love, say you'll be my girls for life
Girls for life
Oh hold up, I need another one
I think you, you do too
Grab my bag, got my own money
Don't need any man in this room
My boyfriend he'll be calling me now anytime
I need all my girls to keep him off my mind
So hold up we need another one
What we got is all good

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,LO
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talking bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout love

I'm talkin' bout love
Love is an energy, love is a mystery
Love is meant to be true
Love is a part of me, love is the heart of me
Love is the best thing we do

L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
Oh did you hear me say?
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O
I'm talkin' bout
L,O,L,O,L,O,L.O.V.E
L,O,L,O,L,O

A song that is really stuck in my head... it's a coOl song! lol~ Sometimes, it just shows that gals just need their galfrens in order to be strong...

Hail Girl Power! haha... ^.^

take care. God bless.

*peace*

i'm sooo screwed

2006-01-30T23:06:00.000+08:00

firstly, my mummy's away... in philippines... on holiday... without me... argh... so no mummy for a week... *sad*

secondly, i've got my first psychology tutorial on wednesday.... n i haven't prepared anything!!! sheesh.. realised that i got a whole bunch of readings to do.. shucks... n so many words.... argh.

thirdly, i'm lost. figuratively speaking that is. hai... the 'pressure' i feel is even greater than havin to cope w 7 tuition students in a semester. gosh.

hope someone finds me. lol.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

My First Day of Chinese New Year

2006-01-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

Amazingly, for a person who was so pessimistic about the whole Chinese New Year occasion, i actually had fun on the first day of the lunar year. Bet there's someone dying to claim all credit for this.. haha...

Well, today started off really okay.. by the annual first visit to my Grandmother's house. I totally love my grandmother lor. haha.. Anyway, pigged out as usual, eating mostly yday's reunion dinner's leftovers. Which was a lot. I think i really put on weight during this holidays. Sheesh.. there goes all the weight i've tried to lose... and double put on. ARGH.

Previously, my whole family will go visiting the whole day. But given the fact that we are to be mourning over my grandfather's demise, so this year we were not required to go all over Singapore. So, on receiving mr. calvin's invitation to attend his church service, i agreed. :)

So off i went for new creation's service held at the indoor stadium, and firstly, i was surprised by the crowd turnout. The number was as great as the number of people at the BLUE concert i attended with Shiva just a year ago. There was a huge crowd - couples, families, teens, grandfolks... And at the service, it was amazing to see that these people really active in worshipping God. It was certainly an charismatic event which was really glammed up with performances by the band, choir, singing talents and also dance performance. Really hyped up, i must say. It really satisfied the senses. I know that it is their preferred method of praising God, but is it really necessary? People dressed up for service like they were dressed up for a concert. I know that, it's true that it's CNY and people are dressed up for visiting, but but but... shouldn't they think twice before entering into God's presence dressed in a mini-skirt and backless top? OKAY, enough of criticisms. The testimony of the pastor and also some members were really odd. Besides, they preached a sermon with almost 80% of their members without a bible at the service. *faint* Forgive me for saying this, but how can you study the Word of God without having the Word of God?

After the really eye-opening experience and learning how different churches conduct their own services, their cultures and also what they preach about, all the more i am glad that God has brought me into the family of Christ at prophetic revelation.

Ok, after service, mr. calvin and me got lost. Apparently, being the sotong i was, brought us both to the wrong bus stop in the slight drizzle but we thankfully had very nice people to guide us the way and before long, we ended up at Suntec City! Where he made me lose my "image" as a demure gal by climbing over a erm.. slab? pavement? argh.. whatever u call it. Then we walked past the Fountain of Wealth just when we decided to eat at Fish &Co. BUT!!! I made him queue with me to touch the water at the fountain. Apparently, it has "magical effects" of blessing people. Haha.. we just queued for fun la.. Since we both are "sua-gus" and haven't been to the centre of the fountain. IT WAS SO COOL!!!! haha.. i splashed him with the water la. haha... We were like lil' kids man.. Kept making him wave at the cool chick at the DJ box too.. lol!!!

We then decided to dedicate each other songs because they were having some kind of live dedication. And gosh, when was the last time, a song was played and dedicated to me??? So, i made him dedicate to "Patricia the Queen" and I dedicated to "Calvin the Clown"... LOL!!! it was seriously funny la... we were like 2 naughty kids playing with the dedication box. The songs we chose were "Dun Cha" (me to him) and" You're Beautiful" (him to me).. haha... We didn't think that it'd be played la.. But we wanted to listen and catch it if it does.

So, we went to grab BK instead of our Fish & Co. dinner.. haha.. I bought Whopper Junior while mr. calvin bought Whopper (papa). hahaha.. and we camped at one end of the fountain and digged into our fries. Then there were sprays of water all over us and our food but silly us, just sat in the shower. haha... and laughing our asses off.. and guess what?! OUR DEDICATIONS CAME ON!!! while we were laughing like mad... so we only caught some parts of the dedications. haha.. BUT... BOTH SONGS CAME ON... AND BOTH DEDICATIONS WERE READ OUT!!!! so pleased at ourselves and happy la... haha...

We finished our meal and decided to head back.. when we realised that we were sitting in the shower because the water was spraying to the back.. and the other side was completely dry.. (difficult to describe... but it's hilarious if you know what really happened)...

Tried to take photos using our cam phones... coz mr. calvin is a super duper vainpot who thought he looked really nice in his new year clothes... which i have to agree he looked gd. argh.... sucker. but of coz i only agreed to take photo w him after he also complimented i looked gd too.. haha.. so who's the bigger sucker? lol! well, in the end, mr. calvin's motorola v3i failed him!!! haha.. batt low lor... lol! but that's just an excuse. moto sux la.. hahaha... TOO BAD... so only my hp has the photos.... mmm.. wonderin if i should send them to him. maybe should charge him.. hehe..

Our chinese new year day ended with our trip back... me to my home and him to his granny's house. was really a pretty fun day. Had to convince him i had a great time 3 times la... stupid.. and i also had to convince him that he looked good lor!!! wat a vainpot. haha... ^.^

had a good time la.

thanks mr. calvin.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Chinese New Year ain't CNY anymore.

2006-01-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

I hate Chinese New Year.

Hate shopping in crowded places for stuff like clothes, bak kwa, goodies, etc.

I hate Chinese New Year.

For the fact that i don't look and feel 'chinese', that i have to celebrate it.

I hate Chinese New Year.

1 new year per year is enough for me.

I hate Chinese New Year.

Everything is so "ANG GONG GONG" haha... Only eunice will know this.

I hate Chinese New Year.

Because as usual, my mum n dad will argue about WHY WE DON'T HAVE A CAR.. n that it's troublesome to go visiting because of that.

I hate Chinese New Year.

For the fact that everyone is so 'KPO' about how I'm doing, got bf not, desperate not.. etc..

I hate Chinese New Year.

Especially this year. Super hate it... Because it's the first time i have to spend it without... My grandfather... WaaaaaaaaaHHHHHHH.... :( To not think of him, is so hard. To ignore his absence, is even tougher. To celebrate knowing he's not here anymore, is miserable. To know that my Grandmother misses him a lot, is like a stab in the heart.

I miss him so much.

I don't want to acknowledge his demise... because it's just too hard. I don't want to ever visit the columbarium because it's a nightmare. I want to live like my grandmother.. in perfect oblivion.

Ignorance is bliss.

Happy Chinese New Year to all. Ignore me and my 'I hate Chinese New Year reasons'.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Valentines' Day Nightmare

2006-01-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

Haha... this year's Valentines' Day nightmare has started really early... The school is plagued with thousands of posters advertising sales of flowers, bears, gifts, etc etc.. And there are guys around me who are asking advice on what to buy for their girlfriends for the day. haha... some single guys are so funny la... mr. gg said that he'll order flowers for me.. n i'll order flowers for him.. n we'll make each other happy.. Lol!!!

I have nothing against Vday.. but it can get annoying. Lol... couples are in doubles, singles are in groups. Well, we love each other... and we enjoy each other's company... but sheesh... it's too over-rated.

I just hope and pray that i don't get another heart-breakin stunt i got last year.. someone played me... asked me out for Vday.. made me the happiest girl on 13feb.. n then said, "haha... just joking about the date!!!" at 12MN on 14th Feb. My first Vday date that never happened. Was it even considered a date? well, I'll never forget that incident and that person. Trust me. A woman once scorned is never to be trifled with. HAHAHA...

Well, guess this year isn't going to be any different from all other years... ^.^ Except that Radio Pulze will be launched on Valentines' Day!!! haha.. shhh.... corporate secret. YEAH rite.

Here's wishing all the people out there... GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR VDAY PLANS!!! haha... Any singles' group outings.. can jio me. hehe.. ;)

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Memoirs of a Geisha

2006-01-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! So happy!!! I finally caught Memoirs of a Geisha!

Firstly, i rate it to be about 3.5 upon 5.

Secondly, this movie is the first movie that i like which has Zhang Ziyi inside. Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon wasn't exactly a fantastic movie and all the movies that Zhang Ziyi were in, did not really impress me. But even though i was skeptical about the entire cast, which comprises of Gong Li and Michelle Yeoh, i actually thought that the movie was rather well done. Watanabe who plays the Chairman.. is totally the Asian Richard Gere.. wooo...

Thirdly, the company i had to watch the movie was great. haha... There was Mr Xiao-Zhu-wannabe and of coz mr. woon. It was my first time meeting mr xiao-zhu-wannabe.. tok abt first impressions. haha.. mr woon really had a fun time tryin to play some kind of matchmaker.. haha.. but TOO BAD. it didn't really work. But we really became a fun bunch of friends!!! can't wait for our shopping trip next thurs.. haha... if it happens..

okie dokey.. time to zzz... helping out tml at Pelangi Village!!! Hope it'd be fun!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Lost

2006-01-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

I was watching "Love Concierge"... a tv serial which i have been catching regularly. I love the plot, the characters and the yummy actors.. haha.. including actresses like Fiona Xie... but most of all, it touched on different kinds of love and the various issues faced by our society such as Premarital Sex, Cross-cultural/racial marriages, divorces and marriages.

Though all this while, i have been intrigued and following the story plot... but today there was something that was mentioned by one of the characters Sunny, that "often, when something is lost, it can't be returned anymore". How true this sentence makes...

These past few years of my life, i have met friends who come and go... friendships broken and bonds forged. The friendships were often broken coz of lack of communication, distance and also change of interests. It did not seem as though we had anything to talk about any more.

The matters of the Heart especially, sometimes, it's the timing. Very often, i have heard people who 'fall out of love' and that they just 'lost' it. Lost the feeling, magic, love. It's sad but it's true. It's a sudden realisation that perhaps, you just couldn't bear to care anymore.

Definitely when people miss the opportunity and chance, they miss the entire possibility of something happening. And that if they tried to find another chance to do so, it is not there anymore. Just like how, the character Ruqing in the show attempted to get her ex-admirer to patch things with her when he already fell for her sister, Ruxin.

With this, i was happy for the character Ruxin, having worked her way into Sunny's heart even despite his blindness towards her sister. Her character is all goody-two-shoes and the kind of gal i actually aspire to be.. except for being pregnant before marriage. haha... but it just gives me hope that someday, no matter how blind some guys to gals and their goodness.. their eyes will open up one day.. God knows when. haha.. but seriously, i really don't care already... or do i?

ah. don't bother.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Avoidance brings about greater stress

2006-01-16T23:40:00.000+08:00

"Avoidance brings about greater stress".. that's my nick on MSN now. It's just about how I am suffering after having avoided doing important things and tasks over 4 days. Precious time wasted facing the telly that i am now... officially behind school work, behind all my CCA committments and just sitting in a daze. Horrible feeling. Besides, i'm avoiding certain ideals, thoughts and feelings i have towards a lot of matters. I just want to lose it all!

Well, other than feeling all miserable. I met up with Ameen for awhile today. Was supposed to have lunch with him.. but he decided to have lunch w another gal. haha.. doesn't matter. . coz i'm used to getting 'ditched'. LOL! well, he was very thoughtful in getting a bday gift for me. It was really sweet of him. except that he gave me a pair of earrings. When i saw it, i loved it. Then i laughed. haha.. Coz i don't have ear holes.

what was even more amusing is that he asked me to drill some!!! haha.. gosh~ Well, i don't have ear holes because of personal reasons - scared of poking, my dad doesn't allow... besides, it is also my way of respecting God. I think it's because earrings represent Pagan ideas and also that in the past, the Egyptians used to make their slaves wear earrings to differentiate them from the common people. argh.. even i'm not too sure.

but nonetheless, it's the thought that counts. so THANK YOU AMEEN!

well, that's about all i have to blog today. got to rush to do tutorial.. argh.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Kids.

2006-01-15T14:13:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I am sorry for my absence for about 4 days from the dear internet and also my blog. I have been avoiding all my responsibilities and also tasks by escaping to my Granny's place which does not have any form of internet access and just television all day long. My granny also gave me the comforts of being who i am without worrying whether it was displeasing to anyone. Besides that, being pampered by the maid was another thing. I could eat whatever i wanted whenever i wanted and also not do my own laundry. haha... basically i just behaved like a spoilt child.

well, my blog isn't about this. I was on my way back home when i actually briefly walked past a primary school friend of mine. Her name is Jumiaton. She was quite a brilliant child in primary school but there were changes in her and before i knew it, primary school just went past us. I didn't bother to keep in contact with her because she isn't exactly my best or good friend. She was just an acquaintance. So, i was surprised that i could still recognise her after like 7 years without having the chance to meet up with her and talk to her.

what i was looking at when i walked past her, was a lady with 2 children, 1 in a pram and 1 wobbling down the path. The man, i presume was her husband was a rather huge fella but before i jumped into any conclusions, she looked happy. So, i bet that her marriage must be good. However, as i was all happy for my long lost primary school friend and her present marital bliss... it really shook me that everyone was going down different paths. Though we seem to have been from the same primary school, neighbourhood etc, we all ended up in different places.

she's 20. same as me. with 2 young children. a husband. i'm 20. same as her. with 5 university modules. a degree waitin for me. wow. as i tried to picture myself in her shoes, i suddenly couldn't 'dream' of having 2 young children waiting for me at home, needing me to care for them, cook and even clean. i suddenly couldn't think of having to spend my entire life with someone. having to plan the future and make a marriage work. suddenly, i felt as though that isn't what i want. though family life seems so wonderful... and so possible in the really near future. i'm still mortified. it seems all too soon. i'm still a spoilt child. a kid. a girl.

before all of u start saying that i'm 20 and am on the path of stepping into adulthood. I think that i'm still very much a lil' girl. a naive and playful one in fact. just turned 20 and my parents and aunt have already started on the boyfriend business. argh. scary. what if i really think i want to be alone? well, that's one thing i really have to convince myself about. but i don't think it's too difficult. haha.. we'll c.. ^.^

take care. God Bless.

*peace*

mistaken identity.

2006-01-10T23:38:00.000+08:00

argh.. those who are close to me.. will have heard this complain like umpteen times and that it's can get irritating and annoying. Poor friends who have to endure it. But i really can't get enough of complaining about it!!!!

I hate to be mistaken for everything else except Chinese!!!!

Gosh.. i have heard it all. From being mistaken as a Chindian, Chinese-Malay, Malay, Eurasian, Mixed blooded, anything but chinese.

I hate it when i get those awful stares from people during the Fasting Period of the Muslims where i feel as though there were ppl around me who were scrutinising when i wolved down a huge Mcdo burger. I hated it when i was on the bus and took a sip of water, this malay lady glared at me and even covered her 4 yr old daughter's eyes. wat the heck.

I hate it when those Mutts just LOOK at me. argh.

I hate it when people speak to me in all sorts of tongues except CHINESE! for goodness sake, i understand the language la...

I hate it when people just gape when they realise i can speak chinese. oh bother..

I hate it when people say," YOU'RE CHINESE?!". Totally over-reacting.

I hate it when people just look at my parents (who unfortunately are both very fair) and just wonder if i was adopted.

I just hate having to give the excuse that i have been playin basketball all my life to get this dark. argh. actually, i tink i was born with the skin colour. sheesh.

hai.. case of mistaken race. haha.. not identity ba. :P

Let me know if anyone else feels the same way as i do. frustrated. maybe can start a counsellin/sharing session.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

GET REAL

2006-01-10T00:03:00.000+08:00

My favourite programme is back!!! Get Real is back on the telly and i was so sad that i actually missed the debut at 8.30pm but thankful that my mother reminded me that there was a repeat at 11.30pm... so stayed up to watch it.

This week's topic was on Child Prostitutes/ Sex Slaves. I was actually disgusted with the idea of the topic and at the same time, really angry at the people involved in making the sex trade such a thriving business.

Young and pretty girls actually get conned into the industry with empty promises of better work pay, better lifestyle and even comfort. But what lurks beneath it all is the harsh reality that they are at the mercy of countless men who want to satisfy their animal sexual desires.

Men on the other hand, are filthy creatures of the land. The stupid requests that they want such as a young girl (preferably 12-13 yrs old) and a virgin. They treat the girls like toys and there was even a case where it was a 70 yr old man!!! Gosh.. even the girl said it was like "doin it with my grandfather". OH LORD!!!

Whatever happened to the morals and conscience of mankind? a 30 yr old man actually had sex with a 16 yr old prostitute and actually told her that he was a father of 2 children. :O Shocking!!! It's just like telling the girl that hey.. i've got 2 children back in Sg who are also like you. Young. But guess what, I am actually a paedophile. HAHAHA.. funny? no.

These selfish people actually sacrifice the young girls' lives to make money --> the pimps or gigglos, to gain sexual gratification --> the stupid men and to just indulge in carnality. The young girls' futures seem bleak and it pains me when i hear that they still hold aspirations and dreams of perhaps studying and enjoying life without having to be part of the sex trade. I really learnt a lesson which is to treasure what i have.. education, food, clothes, money and even family.

I really can't wait for the continuation of the series. I saw a snippet of next week's episode where they will be interviewing the patrons of the sex trade. I really want to spit into their faces if i have the chance to. I was baffled when they showed part of an interview with a man who visits child prostitutes saying that his wife knows about it and she even goes with him to Batam for it. *spit*

Please ppl, go watch the show. It will definitely show you that mankind is cruel and sick. But i am very sure that they will be punished by God one day.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

thanks a lot..

2006-01-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

I just got through yet another day as a 20 year old. Although i must say that i don't feel any different from 19year old days.. But it's just the thought that I'm no longer a teen and that i have more responsibilities now.. it scares me sometimes.. but i'm learning to cope. hEE!

Anyway, this year's bday is almost just like every other bday.. but it's special in its own way.. because, i felt treasured and loved as a fren.. by a whole bunch of people who have been really thoughtful and sweet.. be it just a meal treat, just spending some time with me, just dropping a gift for me.. or even an sms... i wanna thank everyone who made an effort to remember an insignificant date of 7 January and taking note that it's my birthday.

the first person to meet me was mr. lipen --> thanks a lot man.. it was a great dinner @ Pepper Lunch and we had a great chat! Walked around Orchard.. lol!!! was fun rite? hehe.. though i've known you for not too long.. u've been a really thoughtful friend! thanks!!!

the next was mr. Calvin and ms. Eunice --> haha... one is my best fren.. the other is my dearest cousin.. and we watched movie!!! Was kinda disappointed by the story.. but it was alright la... had lunch @ pastamania.. hehe.. thanks for the company ppl.. n thanks to mr calvin's generousity that i'm a proud owner of adidas "birkens" haha... lol!!!

my dearest group of JC frens..--> they are people who i will never forgive and forget.. haha.. big fat liars.. haha.. ms. Kit and ms.Shiva la! haha.. but thanks for just giving me a surprise at causeway point!!! it was so sweet of u all to pop up when i really thought that only shiva was meeting me lor... thanks for the neoprints.. hehe.. i will keep them carefully! had pastamania again.. i wonder why. lol! and to top it up... swensons!!! haha.. yum yum.. thanks to shiva.. i got a free firehouse on the house. lol!

my family!!! --> my mum cooked up a storm... with 2 cakes to celebrate my dear granny's bday and mine and my cousins to join in the fun!!! haha.. it's just sheer bliss of the day la... hehe.. it was so sweet... thanks!!!

lastly, a dear dear friend of mine... mr munloon. --> gosh.. we've known each other for like 7 years already... haha... time flies eh? heE! thanks a lot.. for the meal @ crystal jade.. for the shopping trip... and for being great company on a rainy sunday... heE! thanks a lot... ^.^

all those ppl who have dropped me smses... thanks a lot... i think it's about 30 odd of you all!!!! LOVE YOU LOADS PEOPLE!!! haha.. thanks a lot... thanks to ms. Veron who was so sweet to still get me a gift.. thanks!!! and to everyone else.. who have started smsing me.. feeling apologetic and saying happy belated bday.. haha.. well, u're forgiven. HAHAHAHA.. lol!!!

two zero doesn't seem that scary after all. with friends and family... i'm not afraid! lol! oh ya!!! can u ppl pls stop askin me to get a significant other. HAHA.. i know 20 starting to make me 'old' but hey!!! let God do his job. haha... ok?

take care. God bless.

*peace*

wee!!! 1st hour as 20 yr old!!!

2006-01-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

haha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!
HEe! old liao. :P hehe..

wow.. i'm embarkin on a new journey!!! haha.. not a girl not yet a woman. hehe..

CHEERS!!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

Semester 2 (05/06)

2006-01-06T21:20:00.001+08:00

Gosh... i was just telling people how happy i was in semester 1 and how much i enjoyed the modules.. althought i also complained about the usual stuff CORS and also the stupid bidding... There was a particular module that made me lost and puzzled.. but overall company was great.. Aloe ppl, vader ppl.. hehe.. Love their company lor.

NOW! ARGH!!!! stupid Semester 2 is starting soon and already i feel that it's going topsy-turvy..

1. I didn't get PL2131.. which is an essential module in psychology lor. It's so important for me to get it in order to be able to study several core modules.. BUT ARGH!!! mad already.
2. I'm taking a bunch of modules that all seem so difficult and that's really going to affect my C.A.P this sem lor... i can't see myself doing well this sem. Hai.. but i've got to prove myself wrong!!!
3. The first lecture is on my freakin' big day!!!! ARGH.. it's not as if i haven't had school on my bday.. but this time, it's on a saturday!!! n i have to go back to sch.

Well, this year had a lot going for me.. but it's starting to suck big time. :( And turning the big two-zero wasn't my ultimate wish of the year. I suddenly feel so old. haha... that it's time to take my life seriously. Coz i'm no longer playing.. I'm no longer teen... I no longer have the freedom to be frivolous (not that i was) and playful. Haha.. i'm sure those victims of my pranks that i used to play in school and jc are very thankful for that. hehe..

sheesh.. seems like i've really gotta pull up my socks. haha.. n work hard. STRIVE TO MY GOALS!!!

take care. God bless.

*peace*

lost

2006-01-05T01:12:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling lost. I don't know why. I should be thankful that i have gotten by 5 modules and that I have no problems with my timetable but why am I still feeling so lost.

because I'm only doing 1 module of psychology when I should be doing 2 or 3??? I feel as though this is a sign for me to give up the major. BUT NO WAY!!!

I'm taking...

Employee Management

German 2

Social Psychology

Principles of Marketing

English Exposure

something tells me... all this is soooo wrong. :(

I trust the Lord.

Take care. God Bless.

*peace*

stressed.

2006-01-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

Radio Pulze is launching very soon.

Busy busy busy.

CORS bidding for round 1B is starting very soon.

Busy busy busy.

BIZCOM's marketing is going to start soon.

Busy busy busy.

My Granny's n My birthday coming soon.

Busy busy busy.

2006 seems like a very busy year for me.
Hope i can still maintain my sanity.

take care. God bless.

*peace*

2006

2006-01-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

A brand new year.

A brand new start.

A brand new beginning.

2006.

A brand new blogskin.

A brand new post.

Time to rock the world!!!

But first... I need to get my New Year Resolutions out.

*crossin' my fingers* hope i keep them.. hehe...

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

1. Study Hard.

2. Play Hard.

3. Always trust in God.

4. Lose weight.

5. Stay happy.

6. Control my temper.

7. Don't go clubbing unless necessary.

8. Love my ah-ma and family.

9. Make Radio Pulze a success.

10. Contribute to Bizcom actively.

ok... let's just stick with 10 first. haha... When the timing is rite, then i'll add more.. mmm.. they will come under my wishlist then. Hehe...

Wow. A brand new year. A fresh start. Another set of 365 days.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST.

that's gonna be my motto.

try. or die trying. hahaha.... Lol~

God bless. tc~

*peace*

31122005

2005-12-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

finally. the end is here. haha.. 31122005. The last day of yr 2005 is here.

amazing but true.

2005 has been a really roller coaster ride.. both emotionally and physically. I tot of doing a list of the Top 10 best and worst things that happened in 2005. But having done that last yr. it's a lil' cliche. Haha.. so i decided to come up with "the most blah blah blah" list of things.

so here goes... i'll start with the worse to the best.. hahaha...

The Most Horrible Thing I did
I influenced my lil' cousin Eunice into following my bad ways... lying and stuff... the one incident which i will never forgive myself over. well, stupid FHM's Top 100 Sexiest babes.. argh. enough mentioned.

The Most Horrible Thing that was done to me
i got ditched in a way by some idiot. Why am i not surprised. haha..

The Most Cruel Thing I did
I snubbed a guy after being close with him.. only becoz i didn't know what i want at first. and after bouts of thinking, i realised that i wasn't ready for committment. especially to a guy. and that i still had a long path before me and so i didn't want to be tied down by someone or a relationship.

The Most Cruel Thing ever done to me
being told i should lose more weight. shall not say who said that.

The Saddest Thing that happened
i became grandfather-less.

The Most Embarassing Thing that happened to me
i got drunk and staggered. once and almost twice.

The Happiest Moment of the year
receiving my As and receiving my Semester results

The Best Time I had
at Union Camp

The Craziest Thing I've ever done for the year
dancing. drinking. clubbing. pecking. enough said yet again.

The Best Thing i've done for myself
Recognising my true saviour and getting baptised.

The Things i regret the Most
It's a whole list tied in spot No.1.

1. I allowed myself to get hurt.
2. I hurt people who truly cared for me, my parents and a particular person.
3. I succumbed to temptations and disobeyed God many times.
4. I didn't study very hard for the semester.
5. I didn't get my driving license before my grand dad passed away.
6. I didn't tell my grand dad how much i love him.
7. I rationalise all of my actions.

The Things that made this year wonderful
Also several tied in spot No.1

1. I got my driving license.
2. I passed my A levels.
3. I passed my semester tests.
4. I got into NUS.

Well, those are the things which are worth mentioning and reflecting about. It's been a rockin' year.. both good and bad. Though many things have happened in this year, hearts broken, relationships ruined, friendships forged, people treasured, there's more to look forward to in 2006. I hope.

I feel that 2005 has flown past just like 2004. I can't believe i've gone through so much and thankful for all the people around me.

to Shiva: Thanks babe for everything. You have been my pillar of support, my friend, my companion, my confidant, my bball pal, my chit-chat buddy, my 'lesbo partner', my "speed dial", my advisor, my historian (she takes notes of my love-life/infatuation/ crushes drama.. LOL! who can forget that faithful tutorial where i n CFC just exchanged glances man. hahaha.. ) my fellow single child aka Brat... someone and a friend whom i realised i can't do without. since a long time ago. someone who knows me so well till it scares me like h*ll. well, thanks a lot. you've been great and tolerant. i'm sorry for being a fren who tells on ur first crushes, ur secrets, ur 'taxi' and being just a horrid fren. please forgive me. i'll promise to be better. at least better than this yr. luv ya babe.

to Eunice: hey sweetie... u're the only person who has made me feel proud to be who i am all these years. since i was a young girl. You gave me the opportunity to be ur big jie jie, to be a big jie jie to your sisters and to simply adore you. Sorry for making you sound like a baby... but u just are someone i wanna protect and look after. I'm sorry for misleading you or influencing you wrongly in any way. I'm really sorry. I love u a lot gal...!!! (i know u're thinkin.. YUCKS. but i mean it la..) thanks for listening to my woes and complaints. ur ears must hurt a lot.. haha... next time i buy muffles (are they wat they are called?) for u.. those that cover ur ears. hahaha.. LOL!!! let's look forward to our trip to England together!!! haha.. dunno when that will be lor. hehe..

to my hao jie mei, PL, HY, YZ SL: Hey... thanks for being my best gal frens of all time. Since like secondary school days.. all the way till now. We've gone through a lot together from squabbles to pep talk sessions. It's great to see each other grow up lor.. haha.. HY has found her happiness... well, hopefully the remaining of us will find ours soon! LOL!!! we'll find our own mei zhen xiang xiang zi rou gan!!! HAHAHA....

to Xiong Jie: yoz mr_piggie.. so fast know you for almost 3 years le... haha.. long hor. Still remember u last time super shy wan lor.. then in the end become chao ah beng.. then in the end become bartender. hahaha.. LOL!!! u've always provided entertainment to me n pl... always bully me lor... mess up my hair somemore.. n make fun of me.. haha... DUN TINK U TALL THEN CAN BULLY ME AR!!! =P thanks for giving me fun, joy and laughter everytime i hang out w u and peiling. Hope the 3 of us will always be the "best makan khakis!!!"... hehe..

to Irianto: Muahaha... so fast already.. 3rd jan is coming really soon... hai... u'll be leaving soon. Who the heck will have a flight so freakin' early.. ask me to be at airport at 3am!? crazy ar!!! anyway, thanks for the memories... all the late night calls and talks, ur irritating gaming, ur bullying, ur treats, the cd u bought me, the neoprints we took, the xmas card i sent u which u almost got into trouble for... and thanks for just being irritating irianto. All the best to you and Yunie in the States... :) hey.. if u stay near woodhaven in Michigan let me know..hahaha... my aunt stays there lor. LOl!!!

to Yalai: Thanks bro for guiding me through many decisions and being ever so understanding. I dun tink i'll ever find anyone who understands me like you do. This year has been a rough year for the both of us. And now u're in army, we haven't talked a lot and there's a lot of things that we have to put behind us. I really meant whatever i said during that period of time, but things changed. i wasn't ready. i'm just a kid at heart. forgive me too. u're still the best guy fren i've ever had. thanks a lot.

to Wen Ming: Eh bro, haha.. i enjoy reading ur blogs. Thanks for being a cool bro all this while. Sorry for enduring with my advice-giving behaviour. Your love life is ur business. I understand. I just wanted to help. but i guess it's not really needed after all. but thanks man.. for lending a listenin' ear at times. thanks a lot.

to CTG 210 gang: HEY DUDES AND DUDETTES. haha... thanks people for all the memories in the faithful YJC. thanks for the fun outings which i have only gone to one. but thanks a lot for all the support you all gave during As and of coz after As. Life has pretty much changed for all of us, NS and Uni... hope we'll all stick together. Dog and Bone another time?

to VADER OG: OW Ow Vader Ow, SingaPur bo bian zhao. Gam ji lok ko oh oh, Vader vader Pak Buay To. Buay Song Ah, Qi Kua Bai. Vader Warrior kia zai zai. Ang gai saber ang gao gao. Ang gai saber bo bian zao. Kak Po Kak Po pok pok tiao. Kak Po Kak Po si qiao qiao. Wu nang mai zuo zhuo gak po. Le nang long zong si Kak Po. Hope Vader spirit won't leave us. At least not the memories.

to ALOE OG: haha.. u ppl have been great lecture buddies.. haha.. miss the morning breakfast after psychology lecture. thanks a lot leh... and also for all the fun outings u ppl organise.. Aloe rocks man!!!

to Calvin: hey dude.. gosh~ i've only known you for a short period of time, but hey! we became best friends man!!! haha... still remember the lame way i got to know u and Weixiong.. haha.. but thanks to Bizcom, u've been a great bf (bf in here is best fren hor) and sometimes, you really entertain really well. especially your singing.. till all the glass around me has cracked. thanks for enduring with my sacarsm and lame comments. Well, i have to endure urs first. Lol! Thanks for your 'protection' during Bizcom bash.. haha... sorry for biting u. under alcoholic influence. can't blame me. HAHAHA... ^.^ Sorry for putting u thru my nonsense too.. haha... but hey thanks. u've been great! Good luck in ur love life man.. u've had it goin pretty rough. But don't worry! it'll be great soon!!!

to Lip En: haha... u've been a great friend whom i have known for exactly 3 weeks now... 30 dec was exactly 3 weeks. hahaha... still find the way we got to know each other the most unorthodox and the place we got to know each other is the most undesirable place to know someone new... but hey who cares! U've been a really funny and interesting friend.. who's really a SNAG and been really sweet. thanks for the photo lor~ it's one of the nicest things a person has done for me. haha.. *applause*

to Bizcom ppl: YOZ!!! haha.. u ppl rock la.. haha.. had loads of fun at the chalet.. though i dunno u ppl well, but thanks for being such friendly and cooperative folks. Hope we'll work together and make NUSSU projects the best on campus!!!

to Radio Pulze: firstly, i wanna thank everyone in radio pulze for making me feel like i'm in this great big family. thanks for making me feel so important with the planning of the launch programmes, the publicity and even at the meetings. It's great to be part of a club which has been dedicated all this while and finally getting their big break next year... Hopefully, 2006 will be a rockin' good yr for the club and we'll enjoy success!!! Jia you!!! let's work hard together and get the show going!!! haha...

to my grandfolks (hope grand dad knows this.) : I LOVE YOU BOTH. WO AI NI MEN.

to my parents: a huge sorry. for disobeying. for being a brat. just for being bad. argh. sorry.

lastly, to Lord Jesus Christ: Thank you for your patience, love, protection, blessings, trials, understanding and forgiveness.

well, that concludes my 2005. to everyone else that are not included in any of the groups mentioned above or just not mentioned. U ARE NOT FORGOTTEN. I still want to thank you. for whatever you have done, for or with me. Thanks a lot. Sorry anything that i have done wrongly or made you unhappy. Please forgive me. :)

LOVE ALL YA FOLKS WHO ARE IN MY LIFE!!!!! YOU ALL ROCK!!!!!

take good care.

have a blessed new year.

May God bless you always.

*smileZzz*

p.s.: I'll be changing my blogskin to commemorate a brand new year and start!!! watch out!!! haha.. i'll try to get it out by new year's day. :) Take care all~

luv, pat. 31122005. 2246.

cors

2005-12-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

i've said it once and i've said it before.

CORS sucks.

EL1101E - 7 points
PL2131 - 378 points
PL3235 - 388 points

which module did i get? guess. make a good guess.

argh. CORS sucks.

enough said.

take care and God bless.

2 days to 2006...

tagline for myself.

2005-12-29T15:49:00.000+08:00

bet you all have heard of famous taglines or slogans..

got milk?

have a break. have a kit kat.

forever sport.

just do it.

originators. never imitators.

music through your veins.

you fm. young fresh music.

well, i finally came up with one of my own, 0ne for me to use.. haha.. and it's good for u friends to know... some kind of advertising gimmick for my own.. LOL~ it's....

need a pat on the back? just call pat.

*LAME ALERT*

haha.. that just came at the back of my mind. forgive me.

countdown to 2006.. 3 DAYS!!!

take care and God bless...

happy boxin' day

2005-12-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

today's boxin' day.

i feel like boxin' people today.

1 yr anniversary of tsunami disaster.

a day after xmas.

5days to 2006.

12 days to jan7.

depressing day.

*smileZzz*

take care and God bless.

xmas time

2005-12-25T22:23:00.000+08:00

haha.. that's my bday present from mr. ho (not ho wai kin, please!!!) from his trip to m'sia Kinabalu.. haha.. i tink it's super sweet la.. even though it's only a picture. haha.. :P it's the thought that counts lor. i got several cool gifts, that pic from mr. ho, 4 bags from my mummy, a $60 voucher from aunt bernie, bubble gum souveniors from ms. gnilgno, lovely cards from my best galfrens (yz,hy,pl,hy!!! i feel so bad lor.. i din write them any.. argh!! i'm so mean!!).. Thanks for all the xmas cards from frens around..

Germany's YOU FM is playing, "Christmas time has come"... worlds apart.. but united at the heart.. i really wanna jet to Germany!!!

*smileZZz*

take care and God bless..

~*merry xmas...*~

haha

2005-12-19T11:19:00.000+08:00

gosh... i can't believe that i actually slept for 11.5 hours.

time to bed (18dec): 10.30pm
time up from bed (19dec): 10am

such a pig!!! haha.. but then, it was a worthy good rest and today i'm gonna have a lot of stuff happening so... SLEEP! lol!!!

happy birthday to all of those who are having their bday today! namely: mr. chan, mr lee and ms. sim. haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

*smilezZZ*

tk care and God bless..

p.s.: 5 days to Xmas eve, 6 days to Xmas, 12 days to NYE, 13 days to 2006, 19 days to my bday!!! lol!!!

how fast this yr has gone past.

2005-12-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

was just checkin out Aud's blog.. and hers mentioned that it's amazing how time has gone past and that we have actually come to the end of 2005. I believe that all of us (namely those who have just joined uni) can't believe that we have received our As, got thru 1 sem of school and now enjoying our holidays. It seemed only yesterday that we wore our freakin' fugly uniforms and had big huge specs (well, i did) haha...

the fact that time has passed us by just serves to remind us that life is short and we shouldn't waste it. we should seize each day as those it was the last day of our life. time waits for no one.. so it's always good to grab opportunities and not think too much. haha... this can be both bad and good advice u know.. ^.^

my cousin got married today. so glad for his wife and him! haha.. it was a simple ceremony which definitely showed a lot of sincerity and love. congrats to them once again.

my pastor talked about sincerity lacking in a lot of ppl's hearts and intentions at today's service and i fully agree with him. very few ppl are sincere about what they do or say, why they do certain things and most of all, explaining why they do them. the lack of sincerity just shows us how defensive we all have become and that we are withdrawing into our own citadel and guarding people as though they were our greatest enemies or fears. hai.. wat has happened?

well, all i have to say is "treat one w respect and sincerity. only then will it be reciprocated unto u."

*smilezZZ*

take care everyone... and God bless.

p.s.: exactly 1 week to xmas, 2 weeks to new year, 3 weeks to my bday!!! haha... so happy! ^.^

friends.

2005-12-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

friends.

school friends.

college friends.

class friends.

old friends.

new friends.

childhood friends.

hi-bye friends.

just friends.

cool friends.

nerd friends.

'in' friends.

'out' friends.

good friends.

at-the-moment friends.

disappearing friends.

long lost friends.

close friends.

church friends.

best friends.

gal friends.

guy friends.

stranger-turned friends.

special friends.

gang friends.

cca friends.

fake friends.

real friends.

Which category do u belong to in my social circle? Do you know? Today, i met up with Mr. IT7, my gal frens- SL,YZ,HY.. saw a couple of ppl.. certain 2F'00 gals, benny, nas, aug, lijun... they belong to diff categories of friends... and to many people, bumpin into so many different people in just one area of Orchard can be proof of my 'friendliness' and 'connections'. BUT only some of them are friends worth having and treasuring and keeping. sometimes, it's great to thank these people for making my life colourful and enjoyable. for sharing gd times, bad times and fun times w me... for sticking with just ME. thank you my friends. no matter which category u are in. u still stepped into my life and left a mark. even if it was just a small print. just thanks.

*smilezzz*

take care n God bless..

p.s.: do check out the vamped up Orchard Road.. for the first time, Christmas is really in the air... not just the sales... but the spirit. enjoy. :)

weeE!!

2005-12-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

Ich liebe Deutschland...

i am in German mode now... lol!!! I've fallen deeply in love with this country... I really wanna go there... perhaps next year? Hopefully my CAP is alright to grant me that wish... haha...

Germany rocks!!!

*smilezzz*

take care n God bless...

auf wiedersehen!!!

wat's happening

2005-12-15T22:27:00.000+08:00

blur.

confused.

angry.

sianz.

scream.

bored.

hopeful.

praying.

silent.

*take care and gdnite*

God bless.

*smiLezZz*

the scariest thing

2005-12-14T09:10:00.000+08:00

i actually woke up super early this morning.. and suddenly felt like blogging. So, here i am at freakin' 9am to blog a thought that 'pop' right into my head. haha.. well, i was just thinkin about the scariest thing on Earth.

Guess what the scariest thing is?
I bet Prez Bush would think that it would be the attacks on his superpower country, the usa. I bet LKY would think that it would be the day that singapore loses its independence and merges w the neighbouring msia. the scariest thing for bachelorettes perhaps would be not being able to get a guy by the time they are 30 and for bachelors would be not to get a girl when they hit 16. HAHAHA... though i make think that cockroaches and anything that is creepy and crawling are the scariest thing on Earth, i would say that something else beats it. That is rationality.

Rationality is about how we think and judge ourselves and to use our governing principles to explain our actions. The moment we are irrational, we will not do things which are acceptable and might even justify our actions to make ourselves look good. for instance, we don't give up our seat in the train or bus to a person who needs it more than us because we think "someone else would give it up to them" or "i'm really tired.. my legs ache.. i think I need the seat more than them" or "i bet she's getting off really soon.." This way of thinking just makes us think that it's alright to not give up our seat to others.

moreover, in relation to the many terrorist attacks over the world, the attackers all justify their attacks by saying that it is for the good of mankind or that they are fulfilling a prophecy of a religious war. even hitler in his time, justified his cruel actions with reasons and excuses which he used to pacify the members of the german community.

as for me, i am not entirely good. i mean, i have my flaws and that is my power to rationalise is quite strong that i am able to justify my actions with the weirdest method of reasoning. i give myself stupid excuses to pacify my ego and to allow my id to do whatever it feels like doing (oops... psychology terms.. haha..)

to everyone who reads this blog.. just think about it. think of the times where u rationalised anunacceptable action to make yourself feel that it wasn't as wrong as other people might think it is. do u remember any? if u do.. now think if u regret doing so. beware that u might rationalise it again!

well, that's all... ^.^

*Take care and God bless..*

miss world

2005-12-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

aaahh.... babes... gorgeous babes... they are in the telly!!! haha.. yep, it's miss world.. and gosh... how i wish i'm half as pretty as those gals lor~ haha.. they have both beauty and brains (can't say for all though.. some really look bimbotic). but anyhow, i really wonder how it is like to have the best of both worlds..

sigh.

36-24-36? erm.. i'm 3*-2*-3* mmm.. quite close actually.

E=mc^2? erm.. i'm in NUS! (top 20 uni in the world leh!~ haha)

gorgeous bod? erm.. i tink i have a proportionate body.. a tad too fat.. but WHO CARES LA. i tink i'm alright.

gorgeous smile? u bet i do. i tink that's the only thing about my bod that i'm so contented with. haha..

haha.. seems like i ain't that bad after all.. i can be ms world in my own right!!! haha... (yaya.. it's an illusion but sometimes, that's all you need to save u from fallin' into depression.. LOL! )

tk care and God bless...

Is Life a Masquerade?

I've Moved!!!

Happy Chinese New Year~!

I hate memories..

Bloggies~~!

SOoo Much to Do.. SoooO Little Time..

Happy Birthday to myself!!!

Which Superhero/Supervillain are YOU?

Happy New Year!!!

Argh~! I'm getting fat!

Merry Xmas~!

Friends...

Our Ebook~!!!

Christmas is coming~!

Siblings/ No siblings?

Exams are over!!!

Absolutely Absurd!

LOOKING FOR LOST WALLET!!!

Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol

The Victim's Mindset

NTU's funniest lecturer!!!

Been a fruitful day!

Monday Blues...

Vivo City the Biggest Mall in Singapore!!!

Dubai..

There's No One Like You

Mid Term Paper Craze!

Shopping - A Thing of the Past

FINALLY BACK ~~~~!!!!!

Union Camp rocked!!!

Union Camp 2006!!!

Quote from a friend..

Missing You...

In Germany... Wee!!!

Sentosa Rocks!!! - 030506

Sleepless in Singapore.

Freedom!!!

I Wanna Love You Forever - Jessica Simpson

Man Utd Vs. Chelsea Nite.. 290406

Sad Sad...

Calvin's Favourite Song

My Ah Ma

Sigh..

Amorous Adventurer! LOl~

CoOkie!!!

Clownie n ME!!!

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

Winnie the Pooh n Friends!!!

Egoistic Biatch

My Piano

Follow Through - Gavin Degraw

2 Years

Exercise!!!

News of the Decade!!!

Lesson from Betty Cooper

Horoscope Readings

Fallin' by Mya

MoS... A fantastic place to chill...

My Samsung E700A... =(

Valentines' Day!!! 14022006

J.Lo Wanna Be

Chocolate is the way to a woman's heart...

ELECTIONS... hai..

LAUNCH OF NUS CAMPUS RADIO -*~RADIO PULZE!!!~*

Someone, Save Me

Rings

Outing to the Istana.. Feb 2006.

210 BBQ at Pasir Ris Park in Dec 2005...

blood donation

Chinese New Year Card

Marriage 1101E

J. ROMAN & SOLUNA LYRICS- Where are You?

Ashlee Simpson's "L.O.V.E"

i'm sooo screwed

My First Day of Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year ain't CNY anymore.

Valentines' Day Nightmare

Memoirs of a Geisha

Lost

Avoidance brings about greater stress

LAUNCH OF NUS CAMPUS RADIO -~RADIO PULZE!!!~