Saturday, April 30, 2005
phew!!!!
follow me guys and gals..................................
breathe in... and breathe out.........................
I finally got my posting for NUS !!! Haha... so happy and relieved coz a lot of ppl around me have gotten their letter and I haven't. I thought my results were like pits-ville when i din hear from any of the unis.. and especially after my 2 interviews with SMU and NTU. Gosh... ^.^
Thank God for His blessing!!! Hopefully, all goes well and I can be able to get into the course I want and eventually enjoy what I'm doing. Haha... So freakin happy now... Akagi would know.. coz I called him to tell him the news. My mum was first to know though. hehe...
Well, that's all for today.. lemme go grin abt it... thank God again.
*sMileZzz*
Take care and God bless...
*queen pat*
11:33 PM
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Monday, April 25, 2005
blog's down...
blog's down... will update u guys on my life soon.. i hope....
to
Takenori Akagi: thanks for making me feel so special... the time we spent together... will not be forgotten.. for a long time.. at least for me. ^.^ Thanks for everything..
*sMiLeZzz*
Take care and God bless...
*queen pat*
11:35 PM
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
tired...
i'm tired....
of doin housework...
of giving tuition...
of wondering when are the unis contacting me...
of spending money..
of saving money..
of waiting for A ...
of listening to B and his plans....
of watching lovers go by...
of not being able to book a single lesson for driving...
of missing my parents...
of not having enough sleep...
of being so tired........
*siGh*
take care n God bless... gdnite. Zzzz....
*queen pat*
11:33 PM
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005
pat's day in a glance.. (while parents r away)
morning - wake up, brush teeth, bath, dress up... go tuition...
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afternoon - nutting to do... so go run errands for Grandfather...
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evening - cook/ prepare dinner, wash dishes, watch tv... boil water... throw garbage... wash clothes... refill water dispenser.. put clothes in dryer... surf net.... booze...... sleep.............ZzZzzz
I'm a part time tuition teacher cum full-time slacker cum maid... hahA~ siAnzZZ...
P.S: Today my parents called!!! My gosh, they are enjoying themselves over there lor.. haha.. also gd la.. ^.^ HEe! Love them so so much... miss them a lot...
*sMiLeZzz*
Take care and God bless...
*queen pat*
11:27 PM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005
they have left...
my parents left for china...
Dear Lord,
I sincerely pray for my parents' safety and that You'll protect them from harm. I pray that you will let them and the other family members have an enjoyable trip.
Thank you God for your many blessings for myself and my family.
Amen.
*queen pat*
12:31 PM
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Friday, April 15, 2005
thinking
shhh... I'm thinking...
I'm still thinking....................................
Ok! After today's relief teaching stint, I now understand why no one wants to go into teaching already.
*gRinZ*
Take care all.. and God Bless
*queen pat*
8:38 PM
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
the singer..
she sat there just waiting. waiting for the chance.. Her audience sat around her.. some stood there. Different ages, different faces but all of them seemed to have gathered at a common point. They were there to enjoy the music, to pass their time.. and even to be waiting for someone... perhaps waiting for her to start. Perhaps waiting for her to end. Some faces were filled with enthusiasm, some had a frown and while some were just staring into space. The atmosphere was so stifling.. because it is late. People with their heads filled with stress from work and students with their thinking caps overused, were everywhere. They flooded the station.. they flooded her space.. they flooded the area that was supposed to be occupied by her audience.Her face was emotionless as she sat there amongst the crowds. I was wondering if she was nervous. I was wondering if she regretted to be sitting there alone with a microphone, without any fans, without anyone beside her. She was dressed in a simple white dress and her long hair tucked between her ears and her shoulders. She seem to be stealing glances at the crowd in front of her. To calm herself before the performance? I wouldn't know. Because I was hiding away from the people around. I was looking from afar. She finally saw her chance. Just as a group of people walked past her. The music finally started playing. The amplifier was desperately trying to make its sound aloud. But the noise around was overwhelming and the crowd was just too messy. As the music became louder, the audience gradually hushed down. They were brought into her world and were just waiting to hear the first notes that she was going to sing. She delivered with poise. She sang with grace. A simple hokkien song with a tinge of fast beat tempo to spice things up. She tapped the rhythm as she sang. To make sure that she was in time. To make sure her audience was impressed with her performance and to make sure she was being listened to. Her voice echoed through the station. She sang with emotion and all her heart. It was like honey to the ears. It attracted many to listen. She seemed to know this even though her eyes were tightly closed. Why were they closed? Because she was afraid? Because she didn't want to reveal her true emotions? Again, I wouldn't know.I couldn't understand a single bit of the hokkien song. I didn't know what it was all about. But she was able to deliver it so well that I knew it was a sad song. A really sad song. Her eyes swelled up with tears. She was overwhelmed and caught up in her song. That her voice was still lingering as she sang the last notes of it. She didn't break off completely. She left the notes resounding. In the station. In the people's ears. In my ears. Her audience remain captivated. By her soulful singing. By her sincerity. The station jumpstarted to it's bustling life. It resumed the noise and the activity within it. People started moving in and out of the station. I started moving. Her audience had to move.As she said, Xie Xie to the people around, she looked hopeful. She hoped that her performance was good enough. Good enough for the audience who had bothered to listen to her for the past 5 minutes or so. She remained hopeful as the crowds went by. As her audience gradually dispersed. As her audience disappeared. A little girl approached her and smiled. A tingling sound was heard from her hands. The girl then dropped a coin into the container and it sounded the empty barrel. Still, the singer said Xie Xie Ni with ample gratitude and appreciation. As her hopes died off. As everyone left and dispersed. She felt she had failed as a singer. Behind those black tinted glasses she wore, her eyes were swelling up once more. Not because of the next sad hokkien song she was going to sing. But because the appreciation that was given to her not by anyone else but by a little girl. I was looking afar. But I felt so near. Able to feel her disappointment. Able to understand her fear. Her fear of rejection, her fear of failing yet again. As she prepared for her next song, again, a new audience have gathered. A new batch of people have sat around except for those who have been still standing since just now. Those standing are waiting, She is waiting, the new people sitting around are waiting.. Waiting for their chance... waiting for their future... waiting for it to happen.. every new second of their life.Have you been waiting? Be it for someone or something.. or for me to finish this entry. Stop waiting for things to happen. Seize every moment you have. *sMiLezZz*Take care and God bless.
*queen pat*
11:06 PM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005
i'm so so so unhappy....
I was so unhappy when I sat and ate
Half A Big Mac and half a Chicken fold-over
A large fries and a medium coke.
I was so unhappy when I looked at myself in the mirror.
An image of an imperfect person
stucked in an imperfect body.
I was so unhappy when He called
because all He did was make me feel confused
and extremely pissed.
I was so unhappy when I received those smses
from someone who really cared.
I felt guilty precisely because of that.
I was so unhappy when other unhappy things surfaced in my mind.
It made me sick and i finally realised
that I had the choice to change my life.
To be happy
or to be sad..
It was all in the mind.
*smileZzz*
take care one and all... choose to be happy. it's the first step in life. God bless you all!
*queen pat*
11:26 PM
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
he's so gorgeous...
so many people have told me i'm silly and even clement called takuya Yakult. My gosh... haha~ Here's a pic to blow everyone's mind away... Look at those dreamy eyes.. That cool hair cut...
Just look at him!!!!He's the kind of guy that I look forward to... haha~ He's the kind of guy i dream of.... Too bad.. He belongs to my fantasy... =( So sad.......................................................................
*sigHzZ*
takuya~~~ Take good care folks.. and God bless!
*queen pat*
9:15 PM
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Monday, April 11, 2005
a pilot~ a pilot's all i need...
i was watching "Good Luck!!" on tv today.. Watching tv hasn't really been my thing recently.. now that tuition timings can be like, throughout the whole day.. Well, back to the tv show.. I was actually drawn to watchin it coz of Takuya Kimura.. I think the last time i heard of him was when he was a model for Levis and when he got married... *siGh*
well, the tv serial made me swoon a couple of times when there are close up shots of the gorgeous and hunky Takuya Kimura... Oh gosh.. i was like "HE'S SO CUTE~!!" besides, the things that he does for the female lead is funny yet at the same time, sweet. Well, back to my fantasy... I've been telling a lot of my JC pals how much i want to marry a pilot.. ranging from SAF pilot to commercial flight pilot. Everyone tries to say it's a dangerous job etc etc.. but for me.. I don't mind. It's the undying admiration which i will have for my husband which will make all these dangers seem peanuts to me.
*i think* Anyway, i haven't met anyone who looks like Takuya... amongst my friends.. and even in the crowds at Orchard.. although I saw someone who looks like an exact replica of Tom Cruise.. only he's a chinese and totally attached and unavailable.. saw him at OCS. hahaA~ Well, anyone who spots a Takuya look-alike on the streets! Please help me get his number!!! *gRInzz*
I sound like a naive teenager again.. gosh.. WELL, I'M STILL YOUNG!!! so shuddup! hahaA~ ^.^
*sigh*
takuya...*sMiLEZzz*
Take good care and God blesS!!!
*queen pat*
9:08 PM
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Sunday, April 10, 2005
the good old times~
Me and the most important man in my life... MY DADDY!!! Haha.. so yandao hor.. heE! and Me so chio... haha... ^.^
The people in the photo include, Jamin, Justus, Jabin, Yvonne, someone i dunno, Janice, Jakin, Japheth, MeE!, Christabel and Zimin(should be her). P/s:List was compiled with much help from Eunice
Interesting bunch of photos eh? Haha.. these photos are of my childhood days and I must say that I am simply adorable. Haha.. Nah.. just kidding.
Why have i uploaded these photos? Coz.. recently I have made a commitment to go to church more regularly and with the help of Eunice.. managed to get my life back on track with God. Things are much better now with my increased faith in Jesus Christ and I realised that I have matured as well.
The photos were taken when I was a lil' gal and these were my church mates. All the kids used to play together while our parents were attending service. How time flies and it is amazing how we have all changed. Some people are missing here.. coz this photo was taken really back in time in the 1980s. and so sorry to those who are born later.
Well, enjoy laughin at the photos!!! =)
*sMiLeZzz*
Take care.. and God Bless.
*queen pat*
11:03 PM
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Friday, April 08, 2005
I cUt my HaiR!!!
hahaAA~ I cut my hair!!! Haha.. after weeks of contemplating to do so.. The photo was taken straight after i cut.. muahahAA~
The new hairstyle makes me very retro.... ^.^ I got my fringe... something which i haven't had for a long time.. Gosh.. i look like a lil' gal again... hahahaA~ Sorry.. can't help laughing and laughing about it.. coz Eunice was with me.. she gave me the "it looks... cute" kind of look.. Gosh.. the last thing i want to be is cute lor.. after all those comments about me being bimbotic.. I think my hairstyle made it worst. HeE!
*update* wang is in NS already.. so is Melvin Lee.. hahaA~ Wish them all the best man.. in NS the so called prison.. muahahaA~ Wang is definitely enjoying himself.. smsing and calling me quite often.. like so free hor! They are supposed to defend the country right?!!!! Haha.. bunch of slackers. hehe..
*sMiLEZZz*
Take care and God bless one and all!!!
*queen pat*
10:01 PM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Oh God save me!!!
ZX's mother is getting on my nerves. She owes me $$.
Qian(4) qian(2) huan(2) qian(2)!!!!!! I'm so fed up of being pushed around by an uneducated idiotic auntie. She's making me irritated by her attitude. arghz.
No $$ coz nobody pay me.. which is so irritating. Now down to my tens man... No shopping trips anymore and I think i have become a cheapskate... gosh.. haha~ Besides, so many bills... handphone, cable, dsl connection wat else?
tian ar. Pope has died. Things for the world are going to be different from now on... Salvation for Mankind is urgent now... I am not saved yet. Oh God! Please grant me a gracious heart and a patient one.. Help me to accept the things I cannot change. At the same time, teach me to have more faith in You. I want to be saved. I want to be in Your kingdom at the end of my time. I want to lead a life with You as my saviour and guiding light. Thank you Lord for everything. Amen.
*sigH*
take good care... and God bless us all..
*queen pat*
7:48 PM
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Sunday, April 03, 2005
Bible Quote of the Week
I chanced upon this quote when at service today. It was just the right quote for the questions i had towards the things that have been happening... Hope you find it meaningful too..
"There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven-
A time to give birth, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to uproot what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to tear down, and a time to build up.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to throw stones, and a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, and a time to shun embracing.
A time to search, and a time to give up as lost;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away.
A time to tear apart, and a time to sew together;
A time to be silent, and a time to speak.
A time to love, and a time to hate;
A time for war, and a time for peace."
-Ecclesiastes 3:1-9
*sMiLezZz*
Take care and God bless all....
*queen pat*
10:41 PM
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Saturday, April 02, 2005
HaPpY BiRtHDAy YiZhen!!!!!
hAHAHA... it was a very eventful day!!! gosh.. i really enjoyed myself... haha...
1. Today we went out to celebrate Yz's birthday. Me, Lai, Wen Ming and Yz.. hahaA~ it was fun! And funny too!!! Why? Coz firstly, we couldn't decide where to eat and so ended up eating at Yoshinoya.. sianzZ~ BUT we had fun.. haha~
2. We went to take neoprints with the 2 guys.. which was super funny again.. coz they aren't really pro at taking neoprints like us.. which explains how they look in the neoprints above.
3. We bought Yz a cake.. haha~ Strawberry Sweetheart. Something which i personally like a lot.. haha... so tot it would be nice for her to try. Left causeway and Yz went home to eat dinner... The 3 musketeers then went to find their fourth- CCH. haha~ at his OCS parade. Gosh.. It was a great experience for me man.. haha~ cute guys everywhere.. and i didn't know NS guys could sing!!! HAHA....
4. Took fotos with them again... and got mistaken for diff ppl's gf.. haha~ ^.^ But never mind, those ppl didn't know me.. so they are forgiven. hahaA~ But it was really cool.. i like the photo i took with CCH... but i wan to see the group photos man!!! CCH better send to me.. hahaA~
5. Headed back to Boon Lay (Jurong Point) to makan... haha~ Didn't have any seats or tables in the foodcourts and ended up eating Jap food again... MOS BURGER. gosh.. But it was alright.. n we headed back for Home...
6. We went home and ya.. we went home.
so sleepy now... hope u guys like the photos!!! Happy birthday to Yz again!!!!
*sMiLEzzz*
Take care and God Bless.
*queen pat*
11:55 PM
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Friday, April 01, 2005
Advantages of Singlehood...
What's so bad about being single? It's great to be a swingin' single.. so
STOP asking me, "Do you have a bf already? Are you sure you don't have a bf? etc. etc."
I'm only 19. I know i'm going to hit the two-O soon... but still, I'm considered a teenager. In Archie Comics', it is known as the old-aged teen. Haha.. sounds cool eh? But I still don't understand why is it hard for other people to realise it's ok for me to still be single at 19. OH com'on it's not as though I am supposed to get married by next year or something. Well, these people expect me to have my first bf at age 18.. just like any other girls.. OH PLEASE. These days, girls at 11 are already having their first boyfriends! But so what. I have been fine being a single for the past 18 years and still counting.. it's just that people around me are irritating me about it, making me feel like a "loser" in some sense.
Hence, I've decided to list the TOP 10 advantages of being single.. to SHUT THOSE PEOPLE UP!
10. SINGLE is only 6 letters, whereas Attached has 8 and Married has 7. 9. You save money... loads of it........ trust me.You save on gifts such as birthday gift, 1st month to 11th month 'anniversary' gift, (i don't understand what's the point of counting even the months of the duration of a relationship when 90% of the time, you spend it on telling each other, "I love you forever." Oh please.) anniversary gifts, valentines' day gift, 'sorry' gifts, dates etc etc. )
8. You don't have to bother about another person's feelings. 7. You can always be with your galfrenz and party all nite. 6. You can check out cute guys without feeling guilty. Can you imagine going down Orchard or walking along Sentosa without the ease of checking those hot hunks and bods??? HAhaha.. I certainly would cry man.. ^.^
5. You can flirt and chat with cute guys without feeling guilty. 4. Can do whatever you like, whenever you like. 3. More free time for yourself. 2. You can pig out at buffets without thinking whether your bf would find you fat afterwards. This, I am most happiest about.. coz I can just eat all the things that I want!!!
1. You'll love yourself more!!! Why? Coz you don't need to love someone else ma... and that someone may not necessarily would love you as much.
muAAHAHA.. I'm so pleased with myself. Now that I've got my list... It makes me more certain that I like singlehood and will enjoy every single moment of it. ^.^ Why have fun as a pair when you have 10 times as much fun as a single? HeE!
*sMiLeZzz*
Take care and God BlesS!!!
*queen pat*
10:25 PM
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This blogskin still rocks~!!!
Haha... after changing my blogskin.. i still decided to reuse this. I was so happy when I found out that the person who designed this had "repaired" it and it was in good condition again! ^.^ So happy!!! Haha.. i love this skin. dunno y. Too bad for those who complained abt it being too glaring... sorry la.. *SmiLeZzz*tk care folks! God Bless..
*queen pat*
6:39 PM
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Happy birthday~!
TOo MaNy ppL's bday are within this week.. gosh... scary...
31st Mar: Eunice!!! Happy birthday bao bei! You're my dearest cousin and you must always remember that. Things may not turn out the way you have expected it to be but always believe in God and have faith. He will lead you to greater things! God bless you always and may your 17th year be one that is blessed with happiness! Thanks for the wonderful time at Seoul Garden... It has been fun and really nice to pig out the whole evening!
1st April: April fools' babies.. haha~ I'm amazed at the list... So here goes.. Happy birthday to Peiling, Molly, Wei Jiun, Kok Sing, Ming Wei and Linda!!! Gosh, today is the day where i have a whole list of ppl having their birthday. It's amazing you know! 6 peope i know leh~.. Well, it has been great knowing you guys... and as your birthday approaches and arrives, I pray that you enjoy your day and that your wishes will come true! Take good care of yourselves and till we meet again...
Hi to those ppl that I know today... nice meeting you ppl.. although it was under an awkward circumstances... and to a particular person, namely Irianto: "STOP SAYING I'M DESPO!!!" oh gosh... ruining my reputation man.. hahaA~! Being friendly is not = to flirting is not = to despo. get that.
tian ar. ^.^
*gRiNz* eunice: r things changing? i dunno... we'll c..
*sMiLeZzz*
Take care and God bless...
*queen pat*
12:03 AM
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