Saturday, December 31, 2005
31122005
finally. the end is here. haha.. 31122005. The last day of yr 2005 is here.
amazing but true.
2005 has been a really roller coaster ride.. both emotionally and physically. I tot of doing a list of the Top 10 best and worst things that happened in 2005. But having done that last yr. it's a lil' cliche. Haha.. so i decided to come up with "the most blah blah blah" list of things.
so here goes... i'll start with the worse to the best.. hahaha...
The Most Horrible Thing I didI influenced my lil' cousin Eunice into following my bad ways... lying and stuff... the one incident which i will never forgive myself over. well, stupid FHM's Top 100 Sexiest babes.. argh. enough mentioned.
The Most Horrible Thing that was done to mei got ditched in a way by some idiot. Why am i not surprised. haha..
The Most Cruel Thing I didI snubbed a guy after being close with him.. only becoz i didn't know what i want at first. and after bouts of thinking, i realised that i wasn't ready for committment. especially to a guy. and that i still had a long path before me and so i didn't want to be tied down by someone or a relationship.
The Most Cruel Thing ever done to mebeing told i should lose more weight. shall not say who said that.
The Saddest Thing that happenedi became grandfather-less.
The Most Embarassing Thing that happened to mei got drunk and staggered. once and almost twice.
The Happiest Moment of the yearreceiving my As and receiving my Semester results
The Best Time I hadat Union Camp
The Craziest Thing I've ever done for the yeardancing. drinking. clubbing. pecking. enough said yet again.
The Best Thing i've done for myselfRecognising my true saviour and getting baptised.
The Things i regret the MostIt's a whole list tied in spot No.1.
1. I allowed myself to get hurt.
2. I hurt people who truly cared for me, my parents and a particular person.
3. I succumbed to temptations and disobeyed God many times.
4. I didn't study very hard for the semester.
5. I didn't get my driving license before my grand dad passed away.
6. I didn't tell my grand dad how much i love him.
7. I rationalise all of my actions.
The Things that made this year wonderfulAlso several tied in spot No.1
1. I got my driving license.
2. I passed my A levels.
3. I passed my semester tests.
4. I got into NUS.
Well, those are the things which are worth mentioning and reflecting about. It's been a rockin' year.. both good and bad. Though many things have happened in this year, hearts broken, relationships ruined, friendships forged, people treasured, there's more to look forward to in 2006. I hope.
I feel that 2005 has flown past just like 2004. I can't believe i've gone through so much and thankful for all the people around me.
to Shiva: Thanks babe for everything. You have been my pillar of support, my friend, my companion, my confidant, my bball pal, my chit-chat buddy, my 'lesbo partner', my "speed dial", my advisor, my historian (she takes notes of my love-life/infatuation/ crushes drama.. LOL! who can forget that faithful tutorial where i n CFC just exchanged glances man. hahaha.. ) my fellow single child aka Brat... someone and a friend whom i realised i can't do without. since a long time ago. someone who knows me so well till it scares me like h*ll. well, thanks a lot. you've been great and tolerant. i'm sorry for being a fren who tells on ur first crushes, ur secrets, ur 'taxi' and being just a horrid fren. please forgive me. i'll promise to be better. at least better than this yr. luv ya babe.
to Eunice: hey sweetie... u're the only person who has made me feel proud to be who i am all these years. since i was a young girl. You gave me the opportunity to be ur big jie jie, to be a big jie jie to your sisters and to simply adore you. Sorry for making you sound like a baby... but u just are someone i wanna protect and look after. I'm sorry for misleading you or influencing you wrongly in any way. I'm really sorry. I love u a lot gal...!!! (i know u're thinkin.. YUCKS. but i mean it la..) thanks for listening to my woes and complaints. ur ears must hurt a lot.. haha... next time i buy muffles (are they wat they are called?) for u.. those that cover ur ears. hahaha.. LOL!!! let's look forward to our trip to England together!!! haha.. dunno when that will be lor. hehe.. to my hao jie mei, PL, HY, YZ SL: Hey... thanks for being my best gal frens of all time. Since like secondary school days.. all the way till now. We've gone through a lot together from squabbles to pep talk sessions. It's great to see each other grow up lor.. haha.. HY has found her happiness... well, hopefully the remaining of us will find ours soon! LOL!!! we'll find our own mei zhen xiang xiang zi rou gan!!! HAHAHA....
to Xiong Jie: yoz mr_piggie.. so fast know you for almost 3 years le... haha.. long hor. Still remember u last time super shy wan lor.. then in the end become chao ah beng.. then in the end become bartender. hahaha.. LOL!!! u've always provided entertainment to me n pl... always bully me lor... mess up my hair somemore.. n make fun of me.. haha... DUN TINK U TALL THEN CAN BULLY ME AR!!! =P thanks for giving me fun, joy and laughter everytime i hang out w u and peiling. Hope the 3 of us will always be the "best makan khakis!!!"... hehe..
to Irianto: Muahaha... so fast already.. 3rd jan is coming really soon... hai... u'll be leaving soon. Who the heck will have a flight so freakin' early.. ask me to be at airport at 3am!? crazy ar!!! anyway, thanks for the memories... all the late night calls and talks, ur irritating gaming, ur bullying, ur treats, the cd u bought me, the neoprints we took, the xmas card i sent u which u almost got into trouble for... and thanks for just being irritating irianto. All the best to you and Yunie in the States... :) hey.. if u stay near woodhaven in Michigan let me know..hahaha... my aunt stays there lor. LOl!!!
to Yalai: Thanks bro for guiding me through many decisions and being ever so understanding. I dun tink i'll ever find anyone who understands me like you do. This year has been a rough year for the both of us. And now u're in army, we haven't talked a lot and there's a lot of things that we have to put behind us. I really meant whatever i said during that period of time, but things changed. i wasn't ready. i'm just a kid at heart. forgive me too. u're still the best guy fren i've ever had. thanks a lot.
to Wen Ming: Eh bro, haha.. i enjoy reading ur blogs. Thanks for being a cool bro all this while. Sorry for enduring with my advice-giving behaviour. Your love life is ur business. I understand. I just wanted to help. but i guess it's not really needed after all. but thanks man.. for lending a listenin' ear at times. thanks a lot.
to CTG 210 gang: HEY DUDES AND DUDETTES. haha... thanks people for all the memories in the faithful YJC. thanks for the fun outings which i have only gone to one. but thanks a lot for all the support you all gave during As and of coz after As. Life has pretty much changed for all of us, NS and Uni... hope we'll all stick together. Dog and Bone another time?
to VADER OG: OW Ow Vader Ow, SingaPur bo bian zhao. Gam ji lok ko oh oh, Vader vader Pak Buay To. Buay Song Ah, Qi Kua Bai. Vader Warrior kia zai zai. Ang gai saber ang gao gao. Ang gai saber bo bian zao. Kak Po Kak Po pok pok tiao. Kak Po Kak Po si qiao qiao. Wu nang mai zuo zhuo gak po. Le nang long zong si Kak Po. Hope Vader spirit won't leave us. At least not the memories.
to ALOE OG: haha.. u ppl have been great lecture buddies.. haha.. miss the morning breakfast after psychology lecture. thanks a lot leh... and also for all the fun outings u ppl organise.. Aloe rocks man!!!
to Calvin: hey dude.. gosh~ i've only known you for a short period of time, but hey! we became best friends man!!! haha... still remember the lame way i got to know u and Weixiong.. haha.. but thanks to Bizcom, u've been a great bf (bf in here is best fren hor) and sometimes, you really entertain really well. especially your singing.. till all the glass around me has cracked. thanks for enduring with my sacarsm and lame comments. Well, i have to endure urs first. Lol! Thanks for your 'protection' during Bizcom bash.. haha... sorry for biting u. under alcoholic influence. can't blame me. HAHAHA... ^.^ Sorry for putting u thru my nonsense too.. haha... but hey thanks. u've been great! Good luck in ur love life man.. u've had it goin pretty rough. But don't worry! it'll be great soon!!!
to Lip En: haha... u've been a great friend whom i have known for exactly 3 weeks now... 30 dec was exactly 3 weeks. hahaha... still find the way we got to know each other the most unorthodox and the place we got to know each other is the most undesirable place to know someone new... but hey who cares! U've been a really funny and interesting friend.. who's really a SNAG and been really sweet. thanks for the photo lor~ it's one of the nicest things a person has done for me. haha.. *applause*
to Bizcom ppl: YOZ!!! haha.. u ppl rock la.. haha.. had loads of fun at the chalet.. though i dunno u ppl well, but thanks for being such friendly and cooperative folks. Hope we'll work together and make NUSSU projects the best on campus!!!
to Radio Pulze: firstly, i wanna thank everyone in radio pulze for making me feel like i'm in this great big family. thanks for making me feel so important with the planning of the launch programmes, the publicity and even at the meetings. It's great to be part of a club which has been dedicated all this while and finally getting their big break next year... Hopefully, 2006 will be a rockin' good yr for the club and we'll enjoy success!!! Jia you!!! let's work hard together and get the show going!!! haha...
to my grandfolks (hope grand dad knows this.) : I LOVE YOU BOTH. WO AI NI MEN.
to my parents: a huge sorry. for disobeying. for being a brat. just for being bad. argh. sorry. lastly,
to Lord Jesus Christ: Thank you for your patience, love, protection, blessings, trials, understanding and forgiveness.
well, that concludes my 2005. to everyone else that are not included in any of the groups mentioned above or just not mentioned. U ARE NOT FORGOTTEN. I still want to thank you. for whatever you have done, for or with me. Thanks a lot. Sorry anything that i have done wrongly or made you unhappy. Please forgive me. :)
LOVE ALL YA FOLKS WHO ARE IN MY LIFE!!!!! YOU ALL ROCK!!!!!
take good care.
have a blessed new year.
May God bless you always.
*smileZzz*
p.s.: I'll be changing my blogskin to commemorate a brand new year and start!!! watch out!!! haha.. i'll try to get it out by new year's day. :) Take care all~
luv, pat. 31122005. 2246.
*queen pat*
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Friday, December 30, 2005
cors
i've said it once and i've said it before.
CORS sucks.
EL1101E - 7 points
PL2131 - 378 points
PL3235 - 388 points
which module did i get? guess. make a good guess.
argh. CORS sucks.
enough said.
take care and God bless.
2 days to 2006...
*queen pat*
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
tagline for myself.
bet you all have heard of famous taglines or slogans..
got milk?
have a break. have a kit kat.
forever sport.
just do it.
originators. never imitators.
music through your veins.
you fm. young fresh music.
well, i finally came up with one of my own, 0ne for me to use.. haha.. and it's good for u friends to know... some kind of advertising gimmick for my own.. LOL~ it's....
need a pat on the back? just call pat.
*LAME ALERT*
haha.. that just came at the back of my mind. forgive me.
countdown to 2006.. 3 DAYS!!!
take care and God bless...
*queen pat*
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Monday, December 26, 2005
happy boxin' day
today's boxin' day.
i feel like boxin' people today.
1 yr anniversary of tsunami disaster.
a day after xmas.
5days to 2006.
12 days to jan7.
depressing day.
*smileZzz*
take care and God bless.
*queen pat*
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
xmas time
haha.. that's my bday present from mr. ho (not ho wai kin, please!!!) from his trip to m'sia Kinabalu.. haha.. i tink it's super sweet la.. even though it's only a picture. haha.. :P it's the thought that counts lor. i got several cool gifts, that pic from mr. ho, 4 bags from my mummy, a $60 voucher from aunt bernie, bubble gum souveniors from ms. gnilgno, lovely cards from my best galfrens (yz,hy,pl,hy!!! i feel so bad lor.. i din write them any.. argh!! i'm so mean!!).. Thanks for all the xmas cards from frens around..
Germany's YOU FM is playing, "Christmas time has come"... worlds apart.. but united at the heart.. i really wanna jet to Germany!!!
*smileZZz*
take care and God bless..
~*merry xmas...*~
*queen pat*
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Monday, December 19, 2005
haha
gosh... i can't believe that i actually slept for 11.5 hours.
time to bed (18dec): 10.30pm
time up from bed (19dec): 10am
such a pig!!! haha.. but then, it was a worthy good rest and today i'm gonna have a lot of stuff happening so... SLEEP! lol!!!
happy birthday to all of those who are having their bday today! namely: mr. chan, mr lee and ms. sim. haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
*smilezZZ*
tk care and God bless..
p.s.: 5 days to Xmas eve, 6 days to Xmas, 12 days to NYE, 13 days to 2006, 19 days to my bday!!! lol!!!
*queen pat*
11:19 AM
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Sunday, December 18, 2005
how fast this yr has gone past.
was just checkin out Aud's blog.. and hers mentioned that it's amazing how time has gone past and that we have actually come to the end of 2005. I believe that all of us (namely those who have just joined uni) can't believe that we have received our As, got thru 1 sem of school and now enjoying our holidays. It seemed only yesterday that we wore our freakin' fugly uniforms and had big huge specs (well, i did) haha...
the fact that time has passed us by just serves to remind us that life is short and we shouldn't waste it. we should seize each day as those it was the last day of our life. time waits for no one.. so it's always good to grab opportunities and not think too much. haha... this can be both bad and good advice u know.. ^.^
my cousin got married today. so glad for his wife and him! haha.. it was a simple ceremony which definitely showed a lot of sincerity and love. congrats to them once again.
my pastor talked about sincerity lacking in a lot of ppl's hearts and intentions at today's service and i fully agree with him. very few ppl are sincere about what they do or say, why they do certain things and most of all, explaining why they do them. the lack of sincerity just shows us how defensive we all have become and that we are withdrawing into our own citadel and guarding people as though they were our greatest enemies or fears. hai.. wat has happened?
well, all i have to say is "treat one w respect and sincerity. only then will it be reciprocated unto u."
*smilezZZ*
take care everyone... and God bless.
p.s.: exactly 1 week to xmas, 2 weeks to new year, 3 weeks to my bday!!! haha... so happy! ^.^
*queen pat*
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
friends.
friends.
school friends.
college friends.
class friends.
old friends.
new friends.
childhood friends.
hi-bye friends.
just friends.
cool friends.
nerd friends.
'in' friends.
'out' friends.
good friends.
at-the-moment friends.
disappearing friends.
long lost friends.
close friends.
church friends.
best friends.
gal friends.
guy friends.
stranger-turned friends.
special friends.
gang friends.
cca friends.
fake friends.
real friends.
Which category do u belong to in my social circle? Do you know? Today, i met up with Mr. IT7, my gal frens- SL,YZ,HY.. saw a couple of ppl.. certain 2F'00 gals, benny, nas, aug, lijun... they belong to diff categories of friends... and to many people, bumpin into so many different people in just one area of Orchard can be proof of my 'friendliness' and 'connections'. BUT only some of them are friends worth having and treasuring and keeping. sometimes, it's great to thank these people for making my life colourful and enjoyable. for sharing gd times, bad times and fun times w me... for sticking with just ME. thank you my friends. no matter which category u are in. u still stepped into my life and left a mark. even if it was just a small print. just thanks.
*smilezzz*
take care n God bless..
p.s.: do check out the vamped up Orchard Road.. for the first time, Christmas is really in the air... not just the sales... but the spirit. enjoy. :)
*queen pat*
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Friday, December 16, 2005
weeE!!
Ich liebe Deutschland...
i am in German mode now... lol!!! I've fallen deeply in love with this country... I really wanna go there... perhaps next year? Hopefully my CAP is alright to grant me that wish... haha...
Germany rocks!!!
*smilezzz*
take care n God bless...
auf wiedersehen!!!
*queen pat*
11:48 PM
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
wat's happening
blur.
confused.
angry.
sianz.
scream.
bored.
hopeful.
praying.
silent.
*take care and gdnite*
God bless.
*smiLezZz*
*queen pat*
10:27 PM
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Wednesday, December 14, 2005
the scariest thing
i actually woke up super early this morning.. and suddenly felt like blogging. So, here i am at freakin' 9am to blog a thought that 'pop' right into my head. haha.. well, i was just thinkin about the scariest thing on Earth.
Guess what the scariest thing is?
I bet Prez Bush would think that it would be the attacks on his superpower country, the usa. I bet LKY would think that it would be the day that singapore loses its independence and merges w the neighbouring msia. the scariest thing for bachelorettes perhaps would be not being able to get a guy by the time they are 30 and for bachelors would be not to get a girl when they hit 16. HAHAHA... though i make think that cockroaches and anything that is creepy and crawling are the scariest thing on Earth, i would say that something else beats it. That is rationality.
Rationality is about how we think and judge ourselves and to use our governing principles to explain our actions. The moment we are irrational, we will not do things which are acceptable and might even justify our actions to make ourselves look good. for instance, we don't give up our seat in the train or bus to a person who needs it more than us because we think "someone else would give it up to them" or "i'm really tired.. my legs ache.. i think I need the seat more than them" or "i bet she's getting off really soon.." This way of thinking just makes us think that it's alright to not give up our seat to others.
moreover, in relation to the many terrorist attacks over the world, the attackers all justify their attacks by saying that it is for the good of mankind or that they are fulfilling a prophecy of a religious war. even hitler in his time, justified his cruel actions with reasons and excuses which he used to pacify the members of the german community.
as for me, i am not entirely good. i mean, i have my flaws and that is my power to rationalise is quite strong that i am able to justify my actions with the weirdest method of reasoning. i give myself stupid excuses to pacify my ego and to allow my id to do whatever it feels like doing (oops... psychology terms.. haha..)
to everyone who reads this blog.. just think about it. think of the times where u rationalised anunacceptable action to make yourself feel that it wasn't as wrong as other people might think it is. do u remember any? if u do.. now think if u regret doing so. beware that u might rationalise it again!
well, that's all... ^.^
*Take care and God bless..*
*queen pat*
9:10 AM
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
miss world
aaahh.... babes... gorgeous babes... they are in the telly!!! haha.. yep, it's miss world.. and gosh... how i wish i'm half as pretty as those gals lor~ haha.. they have both beauty and brains (can't say for all though.. some really look bimbotic). but anyhow, i really wonder how it is like to have the best of both worlds..
sigh.
36-24-36? erm.. i'm 3*-2*-3* mmm.. quite close actually.
E=mc^2? erm.. i'm in NUS! (top 20 uni in the world leh!~ haha)
gorgeous bod? erm.. i tink i have a proportionate body.. a tad too fat.. but WHO CARES LA. i tink i'm alright.
gorgeous smile? u bet i do. i tink that's the only thing about my bod that i'm so contented with. haha..
haha.. seems like i ain't that bad after all.. i can be ms world in my own right!!! haha... (yaya.. it's an illusion but sometimes, that's all you need to save u from fallin' into depression.. LOL! )
tk care and God bless...
*queen pat*
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
bizcom bash
*before bizcom bash... haha.. so pretty hor!!! LoL!!!*
*bizcom rulz la!!! From left: Kim, Shiva, Me, Calvin*
*my rockin' frenz!!! haha... cool rite!! 2 beauties n 1 ahem.. clown. hahaha.. *
I think that Bizcom Bash was really great! Had a great time at Indochine... haha.. though at first it was kinda sad that there were not many ppl.. but it was alright! Had loads of fun!!! It was just a nite of hangin' around with frens, runnin' errands for the main com members.. but on the whole, it was cool! haha... thanks to all who made it possible!!!
take care and God bless!!!
*queen pat*
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
it's so true!!!
IT'S SO FREAKIN' TRUE!!! HAHA... it's from this website.. www.blogthings.com..
Your Birthdate: January 7
You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy.
And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you.
Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights.
You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!
Your strength: Your self sufficiency
Your weakness: You despise authority
Your power color: Maroon
Your power symbol: Hammer
Your power month: July |
Let me know if you think it's true!!! hahaha...
take care... God bless!!!
*queen pat*
11:06 AM
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is losing yourself a part of the process of love?
today's blog post is actually something that i have shiva have discussed indirectly recently.. why indirectly? coz we didn't tackle a matter specifically. It just cropped up in our conversation in lil' ways.
question: is losing yourself a part of the process of love?
if it sounds really "chim", in simpler words, does it mean that you change when you get into a relationship with someone?
well, our friend, mr chee-bong, recently got attached! (Congratulations to him!!! Haha.. he looks really happy in the r/s lor~ haha...) of coz, we are very happy for him but the first thing that the both of us brought up was, "it's going to change rite?" That was shiva's exact words. hahaha...
we actually think that mr chee-bong might change as in, we won't be spending much time with our fren, we won't be hangin' around much with our fren, we won't definitely "profess" our adoration to him at the basketball court anymore (we don't want to end our lives early hahahaha..) but at the same time, we definitely won't be seeing him around much i guess. These are the typical reactions or after-effects that friends feel when one gets together with someone. Am i right?
people that i know who have been in relationships before, say that sometimes, they actually change in their attitude, their behaviour, their dressing, preference, fashion sense etc.. they unwittingly lose their individuality. i've heard of lovers who change that much just to please the other half or they think that it's best for the relationship. But is it really that necessary?
someone i know actually shared that he got so reliant on his other half and had changed quite a lot that when they unfortunately broke up, he lost himself. the story of breaking up is already bad enough and it is even worse when you think that it was all your fault. I have heard another friend, M who said that he felt his r/s ended because of his inability to meet his gf's expectations. I was like "WHAT?" i believe that for a r/s to work out, both people have to adapt to each other and perhaps grow to be more accepting of the different ways that you have. Moreover, it's a give-and-take thing. besides, you can't blame yourself for being who you are! and if the person is truly worthy of your love, he/she must have loved u because of YOU (character, attitude, thinking etc) and not because of your physical traits.
if you think that you unfortunately are in the same situation as the 2 friends i have mentioned, i believe that you should most importantly be happy. Be happy with yourself, who you are, how you look and how you feel. Because only when you make yourself happy can you make others happy too. Though it sounds selfish of you to do so, but that is when genuine happiness occurs. moreover, find yourself. be it through reading, meditating, talking to friends or even just through art or sports. find out what you are really good in, and where you feel most comfortable and sure that the people around you, adore or appreciate you. FIND YOURSELF.
i know i'm starting to sound like some kind of psychologist. well, that's what i actually aspire to be in the future. hahahaa.. but anyhow, i just feel that it's not worth losing yourself in a relationship and that you should always maintain the individual self that perhaps, your bf and gf truly liked you for. other than that, i think i should stop trying to sound like an expert.. but i've been standin' on the sideline observing and ya.. that is my conclusion.
after sharing ideas above, there's a character meip who wants to perhaps put an end to misery plaguing 2 people, herself and kory. meip wants to take the opportunity to apologise to kory for all the trouble she had caused him. she feels that both of them are miserable - kory doesn't know what she wants and meip feels guilt-ridden. meip knows that they shared gd times together and she felt that it was unfortunately the time where she didn't know what she was feeling and she didn't know what she wanted. the human mind is very deceptive and that feelings may have been confused. meip's sorry for leading kory on in any way in the past and she now absolutely knows that she wants kory to be like a brother to her, someone she used to confide in and someone she counted on, just like old times. she doesn't want him to lose himself just to be able to meet her 'expectations' anymore. but meip finds it difficult to tell kory face to face about this and hopes that some way or another (be it someone we know reading this and tellin' him or kory reads this by chance), kory will realise this. she understands nonetheless if he decides that he chooses to "step out" of the picture (i.e. to leave). but believes that the long friendship of close to 5 years should not be forsaken. perhaps meip and kory can let 2005 pass them by.. and meip hopes that 2006 will be a better year for the both of them. kory, thank you for trying to understand in any way...<br>
i tink i've said enough.
take care everyone. God bless.
*queen pat*
9:22 AM
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Saturday, December 03, 2005
plenty of thoughts..
it's now 1 plus in the morning... i sit at my bed.. watching time pass me by... minutes go by.. as i listen to track after track of songs in my pc...
the diversity of the genres of music available in my laptop leaves me impressed at my own listening choice of music.. *not bad* as i say to myself... all the songs more or less describe a part of me... which brings back memories..
i'm lost again. lost in a world of my own. sometimes, i don't know what i want, why i did some things and even, why i just choose to sit and wait instead of fighting for it.. or why i just let opportunities slip by when i know that they are hard to come by? i'm clueless as to what i want.. clueless as to what i feel... i don't know who i am sometimes... i don't know who i'm leading my life for. Perhaps i'll try to be all noble and say i'm living because of God. He gave me life and so i live.
many people have something to live for... for their loved ones, for their partner, for their ambitions, for their dreams and even for money... for me, i live because i have been given a day by God to live and so i live.
guess i'll just have to be thankful.
wonder what's going through my mind? like i said, i have no idea... haha.. complex being aren't we?
it's now slightly nearer to 1.30am... thank God for another day...
time to lay to rest...
hopefully, i'll wake up to a brand new day... and give thanks again...
*smiLezZZ* take care and God bless..
*queen pat*
1:15 AM
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
a brief absence..
my brief absence... lol.. of almost 2 months has finally come to an end with this post!
1. Congratulate me! I finally got through a semester without any suicidal thoughts, any case of depression and thankfully, no misfortunes. It has been overall a great semester. I got to know a lot of new folks, made a few great friends and am laughing my way to the bank (till tuition stopped and i'm actually currently so broke again)
2. i have got a lot of stuff that i wanted.. my mp3 player (many thanks to mr ye yt. haha.. he helped me get it la).. my lovely laptop (all my tuition went to it).... my driver's license ( thanks to the instructors and also to the tester... n thank God i have a cute face.. the tester couldn't have beared to fail me.. lol~)
3. it's the end of the year!!!! hahaha... finally christmas is here once again.. this week instead of the yearly3 weeks of celebration - xmas --> new year --> my birthday.. it will be extended to 5 weeks!!! how cool is that... haha... it goes like this.. haha ping hoe kor's wedding --> xmas --> new year --> my birthday --> hari raya... HAHAHAHA~~~ way cool!!!!
But anyhow.. i'm really glad that 2005 is coming to an end... it has really been a rollercoaster year.. in fact.. the most rollercoaster like one... There have been many things that occurred and still plaguing me and my life.. but nonetheless.. I am thankful for this year... Gosh.. it's not the end of the year and I'm doing such congratulatory msgs and even a summary of the year? hahaha.. it just goes to show how eager i am for the year to end.
2005's end would also mark yet another chapter of my life... i just realised that i seem to grow old together with the world. haha.. Coz my bday is straight after the new year ma... gosh.. it's amazing.. and next year i will hit the big two-zero. gosh... i'm old... haha... and soon before i know it.. i'm hitting 21. and then before i know it.. i'll be fulfilling the self-fulfilled prophecy of being a spinster teacher who retires to become a full-time housekeeper and nanny to my cousin's future kids and grandkids. hahaha.... Imaginative rite? but it may just come true.
Actually, i can picture myself in that position. In fact, i don't mind leading that life.. But of coz, who is to say how my life would turn out... Like the catchphrase that i keep repeating to my dear cousin Eunice, " who knows i may die tomorrow?" Tomorrow is always filled with uncertainty.. so don't put all your eggs into the basket for tomorrow.. mmm.. it sounds weird. but what the heck. I'm sure you all know what i mean... that is if there are people reading this blog... I know that my blog has been inactive.. I'll try my very best to post more frequently.. especially to update people of what is happening in my life.
so here's the update:
miss patricia is currently sloggin her brains and heart out in NUS FASS and part of the NUSSU Bizcom and also the general honorary secretary of NUS Radiopulze - The NUS Student Deejay Group. Moreover, i also joined the recreational basketball team. haha... What else, that's about it. Nothing much. currently still single and available ( don't know what's so shocking about that ) and very much happy and still boy-crazy ( in the words of ms shivaranjani) haha... and still often mistaken for a lesbo ( or so i tink.. lol~) but recently got the reputation of being an overindependent and erm... competitive bitch (not the exact words of mr chee-bong but close to the exact meaning... lol~ ), recently got myself a great new best fren cum entertaining clown... i will be doing him great injustice for not mentioning about him. Thanks mr woon.. for ur endless entertainment and appalling self-ego that i am still trying to admire. hahaha.. oh ya and i am still indulging in the wonderful world of food in our dear sunny island of Singapore... SO PLEASE PPL... I DID NOT LOSE WEIGHT. I AM NOT ANOREXIC AND NOT BULIMIC AND I AM CERTAINLY NOT SICK. gosh... some people should shut up my neighbours... they ask me such stupid questions, "are you sick? why u lost so much weight? are u alright not?" *faint* gimme a break! hahaha....
so much for bloggin about it.. i doubt they will ever get to read this... so never... just humour me.. so that sums up the wonderful life of moi. who is currently being attacked by mosquitoes coz of my super sweet blood.. haha.... oh ya.. I'm still super sweet and cute okie? (i know u'r puking... i'm turning old already... so just humour me again. ) hahaha... thanks for reading up my blog... those who have been checkin it out... lub ya ppl a lot~ still concerned about a fren like me... OR ARE U JUST HERE TO DIG GOSSIPS? hahaha... just joking la!!!!
take care one and all...
*SmileZZz* n God bless!!!
*queen pat*
9:40 PM
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